Touching Peace

All day my emotions have been swinging back and forth, with absolutely no sense of stability if other people are in any way involved in my life. Buttons pushed so easily, constant chaos. But tonight I touched that place of peace, groundedness, and inner equanimity that has been so elusive these past few months. Today I welcomed the chaos, it was better than the numbness of the previous days. I haven't known who I am without the chaos. However, tonight if only for a minute I was reminded that there is something better. I had forgotten that I can also find my identity in peacefulness. The moment has passed; I am glad for the reminder.

I had that for about five minutes a few weeks ago.

I reached that state again today, and it has lasted a little while now.

I'm trying hard to accept things as they are. I feel the anxiousness creeping up, but I feel at least a little love and peace inside myself, so I'm keeping the anxiousness at bay.

That's a lovely post mooshoo, and I'm glad you managed to find that place, even if it was a fleeting moment.

The key to everything. You ARE that peacefulness, serenity, beauty and grace! All that and sooooo much more! I'm so happy to read you have tasted this in your mind and can willfully go there now!





Remember this light in all your storms, it will guide you back to truth every time.

Also, with training, one can summon that moment at will and stay there. It's called calm abiding. Help with this I can be, just pm me. ...

Kira, thanks for your response. It absolutely made my morning, and naturally I think that you are the greatest ever for coming from this mindfulness perspective. Did you once mention on a thread that you are Buddhist?

Yes, I'm a practicing Soto Zen Buddhist, though I have a rather dusty zafu atm because I overdid zazen and had to take a break. Meditation must also be practiced in moderation!