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Do you have BPD, or do I?

Postby dejamelie » Sun Sep 11, 2011 4:55 am

So, lately I've been thinking... this women who was in my life (and still is.. I guess) actually shows a lot of signs of BPD. And although my problems have been with me for years and years, they have gotten 100x worse since she has been in my life. I have been exhibiting BPD symptoms wayyyy more since she came into my life.. And although my therapists and doctors believe that I have BPD... well.. I've kind of been thinking lately that actually SHE has BPD.. and maybe it was just reflected onto me.. and it made me feel crazy.. but really it was her all along..
Is this even plausible?
I dont know.. I'm at a loss... I hate her and the way she is behaving SO much... Maybe I'm just angry... maybe this is all in my head. GAH we can't she just disappear already. she makes me feel #######5 every time I hear about her or see her...
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Re: Do you have BPD, or do I?

Postby lilyfairy » Sun Sep 11, 2011 6:14 am

Hey Dejamelie

Don't know if it is plausible or not, but I have a very similar sort of situation I'm stuck in at the moment at work. Only I don't think this other woman is BPD, but there's definitely something crazy going on. She's just warped. I don't know how else to describe it. I desperately wish she'd just disappear, because while I like my job, it's making my life hell and I don't want to leave my job just because of her- I'm paranoid that she's there to take over. Trouble is, things are either going to blow up completely at some point between other persons there and her, or she's going to be around for a long time :x :evil: :cry: .

You might be exhibiting more BPD symptoms since she came along because it stresses you out more, I know that each time I have dealings with this woman I become worse- she makes me furious beyond belief and I'll often drive home in an internal rage and start on the self damaging stuff (driving too fast and cutting). If I walked away from the situation tomorrow, I'd probably improve, but then I'd be without a job, and that would cause me more problems.
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Re: Do you have BPD, or do I?

Postby mooshoo » Sun Sep 11, 2011 6:19 pm

She could just be exacerbating your symptoms. I hope she leaves soon for your sake.
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