Missing my last friend

I've lived a pretty crappy life. I'm so afraid to be alone that I force myself on everyone I know so that there will be someone there, but this always just pushes them away.

And so I had one friend left, only one person who would accept my company and he just passed away today. And now I am so alone. Of course I feel sorry for him because he passed on, but I also feel a little jealous of him that I am left behind.

I'm gonna miss him and I guess now I really know how it feels to be truly alone.

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's hard enough to find true friends in this world I can't imagine what you must be going through. Try to be with anyone supportive right now if you can, you shouldn't have to deal with this all by yourself

Anomander, I'm sorry to here about your friend. I will keep you in my thoughts. PM me if you need to. I'll be your friend.

Ano-

I am very sorry for your loss, in more than just the traditional way. I know this is going to be a gaping hole in your heart, and it will be difficult to fill.

it is very hard for us to fit into normal social patterns. Death and loss are especially hard.

*hugs*

AMP

I hope you're not too discouraged. I know you're sad, but I hope you don't give up.

Thank you guys, all of you for your kind words. It's nice to feel like there are still people out there who care.