Talking to ourselves

Hello,

I would appreciate comments from disordered people only here.......*unless you want to say something nice about me.



So today.........i was walking along, enjoying my morning........feeling great. Then suddenly, HORROR!.....i heard footsteps......they were close, too close..........i turned around, and my fears were confirmed......it was other human beings, and they weren't wearing ipods!


So yes, busted........again. I have no idea how long they were behind me.......but they must of, noticed i was talking........out loud, and indepth.......and i was alone.


This happens so often........and it happens everywhere. If i go grocery shopping, i have to both remind and then monitor myself, to make sure i "think" instead of talk.
Otherwise i'll walk around the aisles going "what do you we need? oh right...pizza...........that's not cheap, i thought it was on sale......anyways, what was i saying?? Right.....so _________didn't call me last night, i can't believe......." And i'd go on, as if i was talking to another person........but there is no other person.


Now.......the part about pizza, that is ok i guess..........but i'll make jokes, tell myself stories.....i'll ask and answer questions........


I do it so often..........and i LOVE it. I feel CONSTRAINED when i can't.

I love walking in places, where i can see if anyone is coming for miles......cause those places, are where i can "chat" if i want to.........and not worry about it.


I recently due to money issues.......had to move in to a new place. I have roomates now..........sometimes i wake up, and check to see if they're gone........just so i can figure out if i can be myself or not.


Let me be clear.........i almost can't function properly, without talking to myself. It's like.......i can do it, but it's a pain and it detracts from my enjoyment.
If i have someone else to talk to..........that's good.........but people generally are just "around"......we aren't engaged in conversation. And the walls here, are pretty thin....so they can hear me, talking to myself!

Which, i do......cause i'd go insane.........but i limit it to work related stuff, and/or reading......like if i laugh at something on this site, i say "that's funny" or whatever...............but i don't get to converse with myself.........


Anyways...........


Do you talk to yourselves?

Is it a habit?

Do you feel strange doing it? Or just when you get caught?



I mean.......i almost just want to tell my roomates i talk to myself...........but they'd laugh and think "so do I".........until they saw me. And realised, "this guy talks to himself!"............
then i'm sure they'd be scared........i should show them this site! Hey, atleast i'm not AsPD.....

I always assumed most people talk to themselves, but I know I do it often. It's just part of the way my mind works, I do everything you do, including ask myself questions, answer the questions out loud, curse at myself, tell stories, everything. One time I was thinking randomly of something that got me angry so I screamed "F**K" right in the middle of a waiting room at a hospital where I was standing in a crowded line. People looked over in surprise but I acted like nothing happened. It can make people think you're crazy obviously, but I think it's very normal.

No, I don't usually talk to myself unless I'm saying something in the grocery store, such as, "hmm, yeah, we need more lettuce" or something.

Crazy bastard. Talking to himself.


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You gave me my first smile of today, even after being fired. Thank you, Twisted.

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Yeh I do this a lot and sometimes I get caught doing it and I pretend I'm on the phone or something. It's a weird habit. I can go into full-blown monologues. Just verbalising ideas, thoughts, experiences, acting out discussions I've had or might have with people. Hm, what's that you say? Crazy? Me? Lol, never.

Yes. I do this a lot. I was having a conversation with self today, and then I journaled about it. It was a very intense discussion too. My room mate caught me once, but he thought I was talking to him.
I just say, "oh, I was just talking to myself" and leave it at that. I do it a lot when I am feeling obsessive or manic, which is after an anxiety attack.

I do try to stop it, and find that writing instead is more comfortable. I don't really like talking to myself, but I do like the discussion topics and the discussions themselves. They are some of the best conversations I ever have.

do you spend a lot of time alone?

yeah, i talk to myself sometimes - i live on my own.

have you seen "I am legend" (Will Smith, zombie appocalypse)...

people talk to themselves when they are alone, it can be a coping mechanism.

If you do it a lot, especially as you're growing up, it can become a coping mechanism you get stuck in, even in favour of spending time with other people.

-- Wed Sep 07, 2011 3:35 am --

...this thread also made me think of that other thread about fearing abandonment but wanting to be alone.

Invisible Ghost, the thing about discussion topics struck me too.maybe your roommate would be interested in talking about that stuff, but could find it difficult to join in or know what part of the conversation is what you're saying if you're having the entire conversation with yourself already!

I do this a lot and it's so self-detrimental when others catch me doing it!

I talk to myself, and my imaginary friend. Although lately, I've been putting forth effort to keep the conversations in my head when I'm out in public. I probably drive my old imaginary friend mad... heh.

I only talk to myself out loud when I am absolutely alone... When I was younger I got into a habit of talking to myself in the bathroom and it usually results in me spending a lot more time in there then needed, which can lead to weird looks when every time you go to the bathroom you disappear for 30-40 minutes

I don't do it all the time though, I quite like talking to myself in my head because then I grind my jaw with each syllable.

i talk to myself, to my dog, to my computer, to my vacuum cleaner (usually cussing; i hate it), my dishes, my food... it's pretty much non-stop when i'm at home. or when walking. or when shopping. or whenever.

Yep-and I argue that I always get the answer I wanted when I talk to myself.

I've often had people I work with say to me "are you right there- having a little chat"- yep, don't mind me. Most often it's me verbalising thoughts, or if I'm completely alone, it's me playing out a situation in my head- real or hypothetical. Verbalising my thoughts is probably something I need to do in therapy sessions more, rather than just in my own little world.