Twistedmister wrote:Whatever seems too hard, isn't. : ) Wanting things to be a certain way, is what is too hard.
CRIMSON...........i'm good. You?
Actually, i might not be good........there is a small possibility i'm really sick, but who knows.
Anyways.......other than that, i'm pretty good. Nothing much has changed......except i'm finally understanding how f(Cked up i am and that i'll never be like other people.
Not that any of you should lose hope..........cause i kind of think, atleast from what i've gathered....i'm a little more fragmented then a lot of you appear. Or maybe i'm just more jaded?
Anywho........i feel good. Great about it actually.........i'm not fooling myself anymore. (as much, of course i still am)
What i mean is........i know i'm always going to be fooling and not fooling myself. I'm never going to be one thing or another.......nothing will ever be stable as far as my identity goes. : )
ANyways..........yeah..........how are you? Still with that guy? I'm guessing not..........but i hope you're happier with whoever you are with now....or even better, happy alone.
But yeah........back to the validation..........it's cause we need it, to maintain our sense of identity. Whether personal, or momentary.........we need to "KNOW" what's going on..........are we ugly? pretty? average? funny? boring? happy? sad? We need something to tell us what we are.......can be people or events........but people works best. We can use their judgement (our judgement of what they must be thinking) to fill in the blanks.
And everything is always a blank.........a constant question of the universe and everything in it and how it relates to us.
Ah yes once again your mind gets it so right!
Nice post and totally true.
I'm glad your good! That is great to hear. Last time I heard from you, seemed bad.
I'm glad you regained balanced or whatever you want to call it.
HAHA I still am

I know shoot me! But a lot has happened in between I can pm you about it if you want lol don't worry it'll happen someday. Really.
I hope your back to the boards now

it's not the same with out your thoughts!