Paranoia

Hey,

Just wondering if anybody can help in here (since I got some really good help from my last post in here!) well, I have seriously bad paranoia. I live in an area with no reception, and my mother is not always attached to her phone, and I know that. Yet every so often, if she doesn't reply to texts, I will start panicking. Today, for example, I sent 9 texts within a two hour bracket, then called home, because she wasn't answering. She hadn't seen her phone. Yet I was hysterical because I thought I'd upset her, I'd done something, she didn't like me or want to talk to me.

This happens with several people. Close friends, my girlfriend included - close friends take it as a random eccentricities, my girlfriend is really supportive (and quite paranoid herself) so that works fine. I did this to my friend, but didn't text her, but had a complete panic attack because I knew I wouldn't be able to talk to her until the next day and thought she'd hate me forever and wouldn't want to talk to me anyway so why would I bother, she'd just hate me more!

Really don't know what to do. Whether I upset people with it or not, it's constantly in my mind and destroys any meaningful relationships I attempt to form. I don't know if this goes under the bracket of "abandonment" issues, I don't honestly mind much, I just really need some help with my paranoia because I'm totally screwed up over it!! Thank you.

I do this! I did it last night, rang a friend too many times to count and sent him about 15 texts and went hysterical. I did it to him a week before, and it has actually ruined our relationship. I dont know what to advise, Im just trying to tell myself to chill the f**k out! its easier said than done, but we need to force ourselves to not get worked up! I think what im going to do is right down rational reason why someone wouldnt answer their phone, when im thinking clearly and laminate the peice of paper and just read over it when im getting my irrational on. xx