Totally Empty (triggering? I don't know)

Hiya,

I'm new to all of this. I've not been diagnosed with bpd, but I apparently have "some underlying personality or mood disorder". Really, one of my central concerns is that either way, I feel constantly, horrifically empty. I have no personality or self, I don't know who I am or what I'm doing, and there's nothing inside me. I'm hollow. Does anbody get this and/or understand, or know what to do to make this less acute? It's driving me insane.

Thank you. Lex.

Hey Lex,

I can't give any great advice on how to overcome this feeling, but for what little it may be worth, you're far from alone. I know exactly how you feel, as I'm sure many others here do, too. I've found that I adjust who I am, depending on who I'm around. Without having much to call myself, I find that I try to be whatever the situation calls for.

Hopefully, others with more understanding and experience in correcting this (as I was only diagnosed a month ago, and still have to find a psych), will chime in and give us both a little sage advice. Until then, all I can do is offer you empathy.

Heya

Thank you so much for replying. It's good to know I'm not on my own... I'm really hoping for a solid diagnosis at some point, so I know a bit more what I'm up against.

I know what you mean about altering yourself for the situation... I find myself doing that, and the mood swings I have tend to work with that. I'm seen as confident and "bubbly", much to my own amusement given that I have had frequent suicidal tendencies! It's mainly just this emptiness goes with my lack of personality or sense of self, to just make me feel like I'm utterly dead.

Thank you for your reply, really appreciate it. Lex.