Freaking!

Boyfriend's old truck, I couldn't drive it, couldn't see over the steering wheel, even with pedal extenders could not reach the pedals, he didn't want to sell it, but finally he did after three years of me pleading. Then got mad at me and I went through three days of emotional abuse because "he sold a perfectly good truck for to please MY *ss" for a "piece of poop." Anger, disappointment = 10

New car has issues, well of course, it's a '63 Falcon...won't cost anywhere near to fix as the truck cost in gas alone...but of course it's my fault it has issues. Sadness, guilt, self-loathing, but anger = 7

Son's gf is also Borderline. I love her, but hate her. She uses her BPD as an excuse of why she can do anything she wants, always nagging my son, constant calling and texting when he is trying to spend time with me. My son is a gem. Tries to cope. Does a pretty good job. Talked to my therapist. She says some of my intense feelings regarding her are normal and NOT related to my BPD. She says keep being honest with your son about your feeling regarding her. I have. Of course, she insisted on reading my private messages to him. Says if it's about her, it's her business. Anger = 15

Found out I only get 8 more sessions of therapy. Why? They are kicking out old people for new people. Great! Now what? I have no insurance. Physical disabilities = I can't work = I am in appeals process for SSI = time length left to approval, if at all = 18 months. Fear = 20

Found out I need a biopsy in my throat. No insurance. No one will do it. Fear and anger = oh, close to 100.

I need a HUG. Can someone give me an e-hug?

Hope it helps

*HUGZ*

Comingoutofmyshell wrote:Hope it helps

Yes, it does. THANK YOU! Hugs help a lot.

ladyswan wrote:*HUGZ*

I needed it. I appreciate it. I thank you. Very much.

Comingoutofmyshell wrote:Hope it helps

sorry this is off topic

cute were do you get the smilies from

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