BPD hell?

What would you do if you were placed in solitary confinement for a week?

I was brought to juvy a few months ago when I got in a fight with my dad, he beat the $#%^ out of me, however I was charged with assault and disorderly conduct.

Upon arrival a drill sargent pushed me up against the wall, his nose was touching mine and he screamed at the top of his lungs spitting on me, he told me I was about to go through hell, and basically said I am dirt to him. This was one of the only times I ever cried in front of someone outside of my family. All of the sudden it hit me that I was about to me alone for a long time, nothing but enemys, and people that hate me.

I was given 1 phone call to my parents, I told them I was gona kill my self as soon as I get the chance and said good bye... After that they took all my clothes and put me in a big green "pickle suit" this way i couldnt hurt my self.

I was put into solitary confinement for 48 hours, eventually i just sat there crying and punching the wall over and over. On the second day they took away the priveledge of laying down, when I would lay down they would pound on the door and scream at me.

I started to shut down, all emotion was gone but loneliness helplessness and anxiety. At the end of the 2nd day they moved me into a normal cell with bed sheets and everything, i got my clothes back also. (however I was still not allowed out of my cell) there were small holes under the top bed. I proceded to make a loop with the bedsheet and put it around my neck, just as I was getting it around my neck a corectional officer came by to check on me.

I sat there with the sheet around my neck and a smile on my face, at last they submited to me. They let me out of the cell into the lobby with everyone else, and gave me a book to read. So I sat there reading the book in the same chair for 8 hours until they finally let me shut down and go to sleep.

So this was pretty much the worst experience I've ever had in my life.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU WERE IN SOLITARY CONFINEMENT?

theres no way they would get me in there!

I would like to see em try.....that made me angry

thats straight out abusive barbaric #######4!

do you really feel you deserve that kinda thing?

I went to Marine Corps boot camp. The drill instructors got right up into everyone's face and screamed and yelled, they ranted and raved. Occasionally they would even take someone into a private area for "wall to wall counseling." Knowing there was three months of this yet to come, I could only laugh to myself as I thought "I've been through ten times worse than this. You ###$ will never break me."

I find it easy to dwell within myself and hate anything and everything outside. Solitary? Bring it.

No I felt my dad deserved it. I was pinned to the ground for 5 minutes while I could barley breathe, when I tried to crawl away he would pounce on my ribs, I begged my mom to help she just sat there as I was sobbing and screaming for her to help me. She ended up gettting the neighbor to come over and stop it, she had called the police a minute before he came over though. I was throwing up in the bathroom when the police came and I wouldnt talk to them.

HarveyDent wrote:I went to Marine Corps boot camp. The drill instructors got right up into everyone's face and screamed and yelled, they ranted and raved. Occasionally they would even take someone into a private area for "wall to wall counseling." Knowing there was three months of this yet to come, I could only laugh to myself as I thought "I've been through ten times worse than this. You ###$ will never break me."

I find it easy to dwell within myself and hate anything and everything outside. Solitary? Bring it.

yeah I was kind of debating going into the marines until I spent some time in juvy... makes you hard

I am absolutely disgusted and appalled that the "justice" system thinks it's okay to put you through that and let your father walk for what he did. I know I should be, this kind of thing happens a lot, where

As for what I'd do in solitary, I suspect I would get psychotic very quickly. Normal day-to-day life is hard enough for me to get through while keeping my stress levels down.

And I also think I would possibly make an attempt once I had the chance to. I have a hard time remembering still that even when my family is not nearby that they care, same with my friends, and to be in an environment without even one picture of one of my loved ones would make it so easy to feel completely and utterly abandoned.

Yes exactly. I would also like to mention that one of my friends who had BPD killed him self shortly after leaving juvy on a few month stay. Not saying their related but yeah.

probly more related than unrelated D