I desperately try to sum this all up / That's an obfuscated way of saying I f***ed up;
I try to block out all the sounds that I hear / That's just an opaque way to say that I fear;
I cannot take back the wrongs that I've done / That's a muddled up way to say that I run;
I hurt to think of the pain that I've caused / That's a lusterless way to say I've gave pause;
I don't expect you to listen or care / That's my flimsy way of saying I'm unfair;
I was callous, hurtful and thoughtless too / That's a cryptic way of saying that I care about you;
I don't expect you to forget the past / That's a vague way to say that my flag's at half-mast;
I say this all here and not in a mail / That's how I make luminous - I tried but I failed.
--Me