When all else fails...

I turn to music. Does anyone else do this? I sing it out, dance it out. Right now I want to smash a few of my guitars...but then I would have to replace them. Anyways, music for me is an outlet. It seems to block out the barrage of emotions running through my brain...for a little while anyways. On a flip note, it's also sometimes a way to release pent up emotions, energy or whatever else that is running rampant through my body at the time.

I've always loved and appreciated music of all kinds for my whole life. That's one of the only things I really know about myself. I listen to my ipod constantly, I take it almost everywhere I go unless I am in the company of others. I also have taught myself to play guitar and starting writing my own music. It is a good creative outlet but I have no one to share it with, so I stop playing for periods sometimes but I always come back to it.

Music is the only constant in my life. It's in my blood. My father and husband are both musicians. My father does it for a living. Learned an awful lot about it from recording, to playing and the artists who share their talent with us. It's a hobby for my husband. Although he was in many bands himself when he was younger. Now we have the pleasure of watching our daughter excell in this area as well. My iPod goes with me everywhere as too. Instant gratification. When theres no one to share it with, keep playing, that's when you will write some of your best stuff.

For a while the guitar was my only interest. I didn't have any responsibilities like school or working, I had no money, no friends, no other interests at all, so I spent months researching everything about guitars until I felt like I had really become a proper guitarist. Then I taught myself how to play it and now usually I go through phases where I am able to concentrate on writing my own music. I don't sing or know how to write lyrics or anything, that's why I wish I had a partner in doing this but I don't, so oh well. I have half a dozen finished songs, but lately I've been going through a phase where I don't play as much. But I still listen to music for hours a day every day, I can't really walk anywhere alone without my ipod. If I just walked around the city without either an ipod to listen to or another person to talk to it makes my mind become so bored that I get agitated and feel angry for feeling so bored. My ipod gives my brain constant stimulation, which I need.

Music helps me too even though it's temporary. Thankful for that musicccc

Yeah - music is good because you can pick songs that evoke nicer memories and thoughts. Some people really connect with music on an emotional level so it helps. For other people it might be looking at photographs, or paintings. Some people eat......it's all about thinking about your different senses and how to stimulate them. then you can alter your frame of mind to something nicer and hopefully feel better about things for a while.

I realised the other day the two things I enjoy is listening to music and reading. My favourite genre is 'hardstyle', helps me ride out the rages and actually relaxes me more than any other type of music.

music saved my life when I first got into heavy metal music a little over 10 years ago. It opened up a whole new world for me and was a great way to relieve any repressed anger and hatred that I had buried deep inside me for so long, with no real outlet. But at the same time, because of the nature of the metal music I listened to (mostly death and black metal) I found it also began to influence me spiritually, especially with my religious beliefs. The core of most black metal music revolves around satanism, hatred, darkness, despair, and even suicide. Most death metal revolves around hatred, anger, murder, gore, and of course death. Only within the last couple years did I begin to realize that the music I was listening actually harbored alot of the negative emotions and even influenced it at times, even when those emotions weren't even there to begin with.
It also seemed like any time I tried to stray away from it and embrace any kind of positive spiritual or religious views, any time I would go back and listen to the music it would overwhelm me with all the negative emotions that I tried to recover from. Even now, I'm still trying hard to recover spiritually and emotionally... but its like every time I try to turn to a higher power and start to accept it even a little, something very powerful pulls me away from the whole concept of God and having any kind of faith. Even though in the last few months I've been going to these 12 step faith-based meetings with my sponsor every Friday, and even now bible study on Wednesdays, it seems to have very little influence on me. I know its going to take a while for me to fully open up to it, because I'm not expecting any kind of "quick fix". The hardest part is having to break away from the music, which at times I almost owe my life to, and seems to have been ingrained into me over the last decade.

Heck ya! Dancing it out is a great out let sometimes