I feel sad today....

Well the none contact has worked, I ignored the majority of his texts and his 'hoovers' and I haven't had one for 4 days now...!
So I'm sure he is realising it is over and has maybe moved on to the next 'victim'.

I should be swinging from the chandeliers with happiness that I have finally got my life back, that I can start to save money again, look after me, and maybe buy a house and go on holiday....and eventually move on to a healthier relationship.

So why do I still feel so sad? Why do I still race to the phone every time it goes off, hoping/wishing it to be him? Why am I still awake every night dreaming of him? Why do I constantly struggle to remember the bad times, when I so need to desparately hang on to those bad memories, why do the good memories push themselves into the foreground?

Why? Why? Why/

Maybe it's because a lack of closure? Some ex's make sure you never get closure, they do it deliberately to hurt you. Cut your losses and move on, that's the only thing you can really do in a situation like yours.