PERFECT Song for We Borderlines...

Hi everyone. As I'm sure you can see, I am new here. However, I have been reading this forum for quite some time now. As I'm sure you may have guessed, I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder, and manifest virtually every symptom characteristic of this unfortunate affliction (with the EXCEPTION of infidelity in relationships, which is something I am vehemently opposed to). Though I am not yet ready to share my own story, I thought I would make my introduction by sharing a song that I feel absolutely perfectly describes the way one with this condition feels. I hope other borderlines will find comfort (as I have) in hearing a piece of music that manages to put some of our difficult feelings and self-views into song...feelings that are all too painful and real for us, but are all too often undermined by those around us. Please listen to it on YouTube if you get a chance...it is so melodic and beautiful.

I hope someday to be able to have the courage to share my story as so many of you have, but until then, please try to take solace in knowing that myself and others out there do know that your pain is real, and completely empathize with what you are struggling with each and every day. Bless you all, and my hope is that each and every one of us finds the strength, self-worth, and love that we so desperately need. May we all someday be able to realize what it is like to wake up in the morning to the feeling of true happiness...something that seems so elusive to us now. <3

"Breathe No More"
by: Evanescence

I've been looking in the mirror for so long,
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side
All the little pieces falling, shatter
Shards of me,
Too sharp to put back together
Too small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces
If I try to touch her
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.

Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirit's well
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better
But I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love?
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more

I would also like to say something to all the "Nons" here who have been hurt by someone with this disorder. I know it must be so difficult to know where we as borderlines are coming from, as we do not think in the same ways you do. I am sure the pain that has been inflicted upon you has been terrible, but please try to take some comfort in knowing that you do not have to live with this disorder and the absolutely all-consuming misery it brings to its bearers. Please know that no matter how a person with this disorder comes across on the outside after hurting you, the guilt they are most likely feeling on the inside as a result of causing you pain is truly crippling in a way you cannot begin to comprehend. As most of us truly do not want others to feel any part of the debilitating pain we feel ourselves, we truly NEVER intend to cause those dear to us pain. Though the majority of us do not intentionally hurt those we love, I know it hurts just the same, as I myself have also been in relationships with individuals with personality disorders. Please know this if nothing else: nearly every single action we take, or behavior we act out, no matter how dysfunctional it may seem, is for the sole purpose of lessening the deep emotional pain we feel inside. Though these actions or behaviors may seem deliberately hurtful, most of the time they are merely desperate attempts to cope with our own intensely painful feelings, and self-soothe...something we have no idea how to do on our own. I wish all of you well in your healing. <3

-Lilah

Also for me add

Black Sabbath Paranoid

Godsmack Voodoo

Wilco - How to Fight Loneliness

How to fight loneliness
Smile all the time
Shine your teeth to meaningless
And sharpen them with lies

And whatever is going down
Will you follow around
That's how you fight loneliness

You laugh at every joke
Drag your blanket blindly
Fill your heart with smoke

And the first thing that you want
Will be the last thing you'll ever need
That's how you fight it

Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time

Arcade Fire - Wake Up

Somethin’ filled up
my heart with nothin’,
someone told me not to cry.

But now that I’m older,
my heart’s colder,
and I can see that it’s a lie.

Children wake up,
hold your mistake up,
before they turn the summer into dust.

If the children don’t grow up,
our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We’re just a million little god’s causin rain storms turnin’ every good thing to rust.

I guess we’ll just have to adjust.

With my lighnin’ bolts a glowin’
I can see where I am goin’ to be
when the reaper he reaches and touches my hand.

With my lighnin’ bolts a glowin’
I can see where I am goin’
With my lighnin’ bolts a glowin’
I can see where I am go-goin’

You better look out below!

Scissor Sisters - Return to Oz


Once there was a man
who had a little too much time on his hands
he never stopped to think that he was getting older.
When his night came to an end
He tried to grasp for his last friend and pretend
That he could wish himself health on a four-leaf clover

He said is this the return to Oz?
The grass is dead, the gold is brown and the sky has claws
There's a wind-up man walking round and round
What once was Emerald City is now a crystal town

Its three o' clock in the morning
You get a phone call from the queen with a hundred heads
She says that they're all dead
She tried the last one on
It couldn't speak, fell off
And now she just wanders the halls
Thinking nothing, thinking nothing at all

She says is this the return to Oz?
The grass is dead, the gold is brown and the sky has claws
There's a wind-up man walking round and round
What once was Emerald City is now a crystal town

The wheelies are cutting pavement
and the Skeksis at the rave meant
to hide deep inside
their sunken faces
and their wild, rolling eyes
But their callous words reveal
That they can no longer feel
Love or sex appeal
The patchwork girl has come to cinch the deal

To return to Oz we've fled the world
With smiles and clenching jaws
Please help me friend from coming down
I've lost my place and now it can't be found
Is this the return to Oz?
The grass is dead, the gold is brown and the sky has claws
There's a wind-up man walking round and round
What once was Emerald City is now a crystal town

GanjDroid wrote:Godsmack Voodoo

Totally agree...I love Godsmack! For me, also "Serenity".

Madonna-- Borderline

Something in the way you love me won't let me be
I don't want to be your prisoner so baby won't you set me free
Stop playin' with my heart
Finish what you start
When you make my love come down
If you want me let me know
Baby, let it show
Honey, don't you fool around

Just try to understand
I've given all I can 'cause you got the best of me.

Borderline … feels like I'm goin' to lose my mind
You just keep on pushin' my love over the borderline
Borderline … feels like I'm goin' to lose my mind
You just keep on pushin' my love over the borderline (borderline)
Keep on pushin' me, baby
Don't you know you drive me crazy
You just keep on pushin' my love over the borderline.

Something in your eyes is makin' such a fool of me
When you hold me in your arms you love me till I just can't see
But then you let me down, when I look around, baby you just can't be found
Stop driving me away, I just wanna stay,
There's something I just got to say

Just try to understand
I've given all I can 'cause you got the best of me.


Look what your love has done to me
Come on, baby, set me free
You just keep on pushin' my love over the borderline (borderline)
You cause me so much pain, I think I'm goin' insane
What does it take to make you see?
You just keep on pushin' my love over the borderline.

Keep pushin' me, keep pushin' me, keep pushin' my love
(You just keep on pushin' my love over the borderline, borderline)



So I guess Madonna dated someone with BPD.

shadowjustbehindme wrote:I would also like to say something to all the "Nons" here who have been hurt by someone with this disorder. I know it must be so difficult to know where we as borderlines are coming from, as we do not think in the same ways you do. I am sure the pain that has been inflicted upon you has been terrible, but please try to take some comfort in knowing that you do not have to live with this disorder and the absolutely all-consuming misery it brings to its bearers. Please know that no matter how a person with this disorder comes across on the outside after hurting you, the guilt they are most likely feeling on the inside as a result of causing you pain is truly crippling in a way you cannot begin to comprehend. As most of us truly do not want others to feel any part of the debilitating pain we feel ourselves, we truly NEVER intend to cause those dear to us pain. Though the majority of us do not intentionally hurt those we love, I know it hurts just the same, as I myself have also been in relationships with individuals with personality disorders. Please know this if nothing else: nearly every single action we take, or behavior we act out, no matter how dysfunctional it may seem, is for the sole purpose of lessening the deep emotional pain we feel inside. Though these actions or behaviors may seem deliberately hurtful, most of the time they are merely desperate attempts to cope with our own intensely painful feelings, and self-soothe...something we have no idea how to do on our own. I wish all of you well in your healing. <3-Lilah

You put that into perfect words

I would bet money that Madonna herself has Narcissistic Personality Disorder. And we all know that NPDs and BPDs are often attracted to each other...

Weird Fishes by Radiohead

In the deepest ocean
The bottom of the sea
Your eyes
They turn me
Why should I stay here?
Why should I stay?

I'd be crazy not to follow
Follow where you lead
Your eyes
They turn me

Turn me into phantoms
I follow to the edge of the earth
And fall off
Everybody leaves
If they get the chance
And this is my chance

I get eaten by the worms
And weird fishes
Picked over the worms
And weird fishes
Weird fishes
Weird fishes

I hit the bottom
Hit the bottom and escape
Escape

I hit the bottom
Hit the bottom and escape
Escape

Yeah Yeah Yeahs by Runaway