Benzos Are Not Fit For BPD

My mom has been doing research on the correct medications for people with BPD, I'm sure for my benefit but it increasingly bothers me haha. Anyways, she came across multiple sources that said that benzos increase impulsivity for people with Borderline Personality Disorder.

It bothers me because I like to take the occasional Xanax for situational social anxiety.

Just thought I'd warn everyone that its a possibility.

Now that I think about it, one time I took a Xanax and had trouble controlling my emotions afterwards.

MMonroe wrote:My mom has been doing research on the correct medications for people with BPD, I'm sure for my benefit but it increasingly bothers me haha. Anyways, she came across multiple sources that said that benzos increase impulsivity for people with Borderline Personality Disorder.

It bothers me because I like to take the occasional Xanax for situational social anxiety.

Just thought I'd warn everyone that its a possibility.

Now that I think about it, one time I took a Xanax and had trouble controlling my emotions afterwards.

Sources, sources. Opinions, opinions. Opinions and conclusions best left to both you and your doctor(s) equally. But mostly you if you ask me.

Eh... I've been taking clonazapam [Klonopin] together with lamotrigine [Lamictal] for 7 years now. Now maybe it's different in my case as using Clonazapam on a long-term basis is generally meant to produce a stabilizing effect [i.e. supplements the lamictal in a sense] but still, I don't know. I can see logical reasons why benzos might increase impulsiveness such as the fact that naturally they'd free up inhibition a bit, and make you more care-free etc. I believe it would depend more on how BPD effects you, which aspects of it are more life-impairing and/or destructive for you, and the severity of your secondary conditions. It manifests itself differently, or at least somewhat differently for different people...

Saying for a moment that all of this is true --that it supposedly increases impulsiveness in those with BPD-- I'd rather have to deal with the impulsiveness if it means I'm free of gut wrenching, never ceasing anxiety [GAD]. Anti-depressants, too, are suspected of perhaps further complicating the emotional regulatory issues of BPD. That's largely true in my case, the only two I can take are Cymbalta and Wellbutrin and while I'd like to be back on Cymbalta as it did help my depression I didn't/don't like many side-effects. One in particular: I really enjoy casual ****ing (why sugarcoat it?) and it causes some issues in that area, as all AD's can. I don't care if I ever overdo it or think about it too much as it at least feels like love and I don't care what anyone might otherwise call it. Also obsessing over it makes me feel human, perhaps in a sick sort of way, but still.

But I digress...

I'd rather not feel like a dead person and not lack what I know is my natural confidence (major-depression and BPD which 'play' with each other in me) and have some over the top emotions and emotional needs as a consequence .. for the most part.

Everything has complications; and even then everything has different complications for different people. I think this conclusion you've reached is too blanketed and quite frankly, subjective. Also, if I may say so m'lady: I think you're thinking too hard. Do what works is my advise...

In-light of some of my posts where I mention my marriage I feel the need to state that I've been completely faithful to my wife in the 7 years we've been together and remain so. But if the marriage doesn't hold... yet even still if we're only separated and she requested I remain faithful and thus intended to do the same I would do so. I equate sex, any sex, with love though as it always feels like it so I'm not certain how much longer I can hold out--I'm feeling cold inside. I'm also not certain how much more holding out is fair to me. Right now that particular side-effect of many AD's I mentioned might be a good thing overall (LOL!) but if and when I need to go out looking I'd have to go through withdrawal; again, and Cymbalta withdrawal is NOT fun. I don't want to go on it just to have to go back off again.

Damn, I wish there was someway to make that med manageable, it helps in so many ways...

Benzos make me loopy and mess with my motor skills. Whatever makes them so fun for some, I don't experience.

I took xanax for two years. I took it along with Lamictal Cymbalta and provigil for add. My experience with xanax was quite a ride. Before I was hospitalized I was prescribed xanax for acute panic attacks which would usually result in cutting episodes. For this purpose the xanax was quite effective as it acted so fast and then i would be completely zoned out and couldn't give a $#%^ about anything until i would pass out. However my use of the pill extended far beyond panic attack management. I began taking the pill during the day. It started with just one or two (.25mg). My doctor suggested that I begin taking it more regularly to decrease my overall anxiety level. I found that soon after I would jeep the bottle in my pocket. This was during college and I would just pop them all day. Then I began snorting them. My snorting became so bad i once started bleeding in class just like that goddam commercial. I would snort them when I was drinking and smoking and doing drugs. Obviously this isn't going to be the case for everyone but In my case it increased my overall desire to get intoxicated. It also led me to do some pretty stupid things. I was granted a huge supply of xanax before i moved oversees to volunteer abroad. A month later I had to come home because y use of the xanax became such a problem. I couldn't listen to anyone, I couldn't read, I could barely keep my eyes open. When I would use them and drink I would get really euphoric and would forget EVERYTHING completely the next morning. I gave some to some of the people I befriended abroad. It ended up in some kid losing it and beating the $#%^ out of me. This led to my return home. Everything pretty much got ruined when I was asked to leave. I knew that xanax was causing a lot of problems and so I forced myself to stop taking it. I flushed it down the toilet when a friend of mine told me that I had asked to be in a relationship with her to which she agreed. I had no recollection of the event in it resulted in more problems. Withdrawing was terrible and i became very irritable. I still crave the xanax from time to time even though I have been off it for a year now. It's a really intense and dangerous drug and is prescribed WAY to much. In certain times it helped my immediate well being, but overall it developed into a full on addiction which alienated me from family, friends and the world around me. You could say I paid for my abuse.