School Starting Again... Nervous

Yeah. So, my next semester starts up on the 19th and I'm really nervous about going back. Last semester was really tough for me. I was all over the place. Literally, triggers left and right. I was emotionally exhausted by the end of it. I easily start to obsess about people that I've never really gotten to know. Last semester I liked this one girl (I'm a girl) and I became obsessed with her. But when she kept rejecting me, I got self-destructive and it ended up contributing to my attempted overdose. As well as the stress overload, the depression, just everything.

I'm nervous to get back into the river of triggers.

Tell me about it

I'm just having my exams, and boy, does it suck. I don't even hate the exams themselves, but people getting better grades...no, maybe not even that. But there's always someone who keeps bragging about their pure genius, every second sentence dripping with self-praise. I suppose most people would disagree, but I find it kind of infuriating that I take an exam, speak for about 10 minutes without stopping, answering every single extra questions the professor has, even translating some archaic Chinese expression in scrambled handwriting, then walking out with a grade B, then having some arrogant f*ck walk out with an A just because the teacher was in a better mood... And it's not just the exams, it's the same during the semester. So I definitely hear you...

I have to get through this exam period having to deal not only with the exams, but also the BPD stuff that comes with them, and then it's on to the next semester already...

Well anyway, I wish you good luck with your own semester, other than that, there's not much I can say, being a BPD sufferer myself I know exactly how empty it is to say it's gonna be all right. It probably won't, but hang in there anyway.

Hugs, Takeshi

*edited upon request*