Will someone be my friend?

I'm a recently diagnosed BPDer and my life is completely falling apart. I'm very poor at social interactions and have social anxiety disorder and even a place like a forum is stressful for me because I agonize over my posts and feel like no one likes me or responds to me. I don't have any friends online or IRL and in the past year or so I've lost everyone who was remotely close to me. I've divorced, lost my new relationship, lost my online friends because they were really his friends, been cut off by my mom, and stopped talking to my only friend here in town because my ex husband got to her first and told her a lot of bad things about me. All I have left is my two year old son who says he doesn't like me and tells me to go away, and my ex husband with whom I'm staying currently purely because I'm broke and have nowhere else to go. I desperately just need someone who has experienced the same kind of psychological issues i have, to whom I can write at length and who will respond in kind and help me feel a little less alone. I don't care about gender though I'm female if it makes a difference. As far as age I'm in my mid twenties and someone fairly close to that age is probably best so we can understand each other better. I'm not a creepy stalker and I'm not looking for a relationship or anything of the sort. I'd just like a "penpal" if that doesn't sound too juvenile, someone I can at least talk to when I'm feeling like my hearts been dropped and trodden into the concrete. PM me, please, if you're interested and I'll give you my email address.

BrainFrieze wrote:I'm a recently diagnosed BPDer and my life is completely falling apart. I'm very poor at social interactions and have social anxiety disorder and even a place like a forum is stressful for me because I agonize over my posts and feel like no one likes me or responds to me.

I know how that feels.

BrainFrieze wrote:I'm a recently diagnosed BPDer and my life is completely falling apart. I'm very poor at social interactions and have social anxiety disorder and even a place like a forum is stressful for me because I agonize over my posts and feel like no one likes me or responds to me. I don't have any friends online or IRL and in the past year or so I've lost everyone who was remotely close to me. I've divorced, lost my new relationship, lost my online friends because they were really his friends, been cut off by my mom, and stopped talking to my only friend here in town because my ex husband got to her first and told her a lot of bad things about me. All I have left is my two year old son who says he doesn't like me and tells me to go away, and my ex husband with whom I'm staying currently purely because I'm broke and have nowhere else to go. I desperately just need someone who has experienced the same kind of psychological issues i have, to whom I can write at length and who will respond in kind and help me feel a little less alone. I don't care about gender though I'm female if it makes a difference. As far as age I'm in my mid twenties and someone fairly close to that age is probably best so we can understand each other better. I'm not a creepy stalker and I'm not looking for a relationship or anything of the sort. I'd just like a "penpal" if that doesn't sound too juvenile, someone I can at least talk to when I'm feeling like my hearts been dropped and trodden into the concrete. PM me, please, if you're interested and I'll give you my email address.

Honey, several years ago I had the same attitude and a sentence someone told me that changed my life was "you have an attitude that says 'do me a favor and be my friend'" which is a way of devaluating yourself and people actually shy away from people with low self esteem...

I wouldn't normally approach someone that way. I just honestly AM kind of desperate right now and don't feel up to being coy, and I figured on a board with a bunch of other BPDers a little frankness and vulnerability wasn't a bad thing since most people were likely to understand where I'm coming from and not judge... I needed someone to talk to "like, yesterday" and I doubt that's likely to happen if one doesn't come out and say it. People aren't likely to assume you'll want to PM/email them if it isn't mentioned.

OK, I'm sorry if I sounded judgmental, I didn't mean to. You can PM me if you want to and even if you don't want to I hope you manage to get out of this period you're going though ASAP.

I'll be your friend. I know what it's like to be judged, so I'll have no opinion of you to start. You are reaching out, which takes courage. Get back to me- I'd love to talk with you. I'm a man who used to be married to a BOD woman for 9 years. She deserted me and our daughter. I've forgiven her, and pray for her. Anything you want to know about me, ask- okay?