having BPD and wanting to leave someone?

i have recently started therapy for bpd i have been having feelings of extreme happyiness and hope and excitement for the future that are now lasting for sometimes a couple of days at a time almost. its wonder it truely is, however i am gettnig concerened because i think i am starting to realise my bf is bad for me, i think i love him or i at least know i love having someone to love, but he is quite mean to me and iss constantly blaming me for everyhting - which i spose is probably true, i dnt really know. i want o leave him but i am so scared of being alone and i cant leave until i have somone else to go to which is horrible i know.
i feel the more i can admit to this kinda behaviour the bettwer.

Hi, lucky0! If he's mean and he blames you for everything, it is bad for you. Do you think he might be able to change if you were to talk to him about it? Maybe he needs some therapy too. You could ask your friends and family to give you support, try to spend time with them. See if you can find support groups too (I'm glad you found our forum). You'll feel less lonely and stronger the more time you spend working on your problems and getting support from others.