shiggity shiggity

Today was my birthday. It eventually turned out good. I like when days end on a good note, 'cause then that's how I remember them.

Being pregnant is making me more crazy. xD I get mad SOOOOOooo much, and I feel like it's unfair that I have to be the mature one around here. Pfft... I should be the one stomping around and complaining all the time, not my mom. She only does it every so often, but it makes me so angry that I'm not allowed to act that way. Bah!


Things with the baby's father are looking up though. He sends me "<3"s now, and texted me a happy birthday kiss. ..... I feel guilty about my other friend, who loves me very much and has been around throughout this whole pregnancy. He's been here for me this whole time that the baby's father has been going hot and cold... through all the drama and what not. I feel bad for him... 'cause he's a really great guy, and I do LIKE him.. but I don't hold as strong of feelings for him at all. I've told him this before though... and I let him know tonight that things are getting more positive with this other guy.

Oi... In any case! I'm nowhere near as stressed out as I could be though... I thank the Prozac. :3 It keeps the emotions in check. They're still there, but the pregnancy hormones have finally reached the point to overtake them.

So the "madness" you feel now is different than usual???
You seem to feel better though you get "crazy", is it a different feeling than the usual anger?
do you feel like an average pregnant woman?
Sorry for all my questions, don't mean to oppress you but it interests me a lot, it seems that pregnancy hormones have a kind of positive effect on you...

Is it the same kind of hormones as on periods???
periods usually ###$ me up so much, I have this wave of anger going up and down my stomach and i have to concentrate so much to keep it inside, especially when i'm in the street or in the tube, i just want to jump on people and beat them up, so I simply dont go out...

I do believe the "madness" is different than usual. My normal feelings are more... frustrated depression. Right now I'm more irritated all the time in an almost humorous way. I have to fight being stressed out by everything though. Spiders biting me every night... being tired every morning.... things not being clean enough... haha.

I would definitely agree that pregnancy hormones are a positive thing. I think they are aided by the anti-depressant though, this time. With my first pregnancy I hadn't been on medications for years, so I didn't need any to balance things out like I do this time. Hehe. And no.. I wouldn't say they are the same as when you're on your period. I don't really have a whole LOT of difference when I'm on my period... that I know of.