Role Models

This whole lack of identity thing was starting to get to me. I'm sure many ppl here feel similarly, but I didn't see my parents as viable role models growing up. In fact, I tried my best to do the opposite of what they did.
Then I started reading up on Malcolm X, Ghandi, and MLK... and started incorperating their values into my own.

As a BPD'd individual, I find it very easy to "slip into somebody else's skin." This makes this whole search for identity verry interesting... as I tend to pretty much 'be' a different person every couple of weeks.

What people in your life (or in history) inspire y'all other BPD'd ppls?

This is a hard one for me because every time I think I can look up to someone, I realize that I can't or I don't like their qualities as much as I thought I did or they let me down somehow, so they stop being a role model for me. I used to look up to an old therapist of mine. She had what I thought was everything - an eye doctor for a husband, two sons, a loving family, acted in plays at the theater (not shy/anxious at all like me), thin, attractive, a job that I want...but our therapy went sour and that ended my admiration. I also looked up to my French teacher because she was smart and really good at teaching. I can't think of anyone that I look up to these days.

Does The Incredible Hulk count? I so wish I could transform, gamma-rays, and leap away from the madness. Express my rage appropriately. F' everyone and their Hello Kitty falsehoods. I'm just sayin'.