Ive never felt so alone. doctors cant even help me no more?

i went to the doctors 7 months ago and they said i had depression which i didn't think i had but they still prescribed me 20mg of citalopram which went up to 40mg that didn't work so my doctor gave me 20mg of Prozac instead and sent me to a psychiatrist who said i have borderline personality disorder and told my doctor to start a different medication so i went back to my doctor who told me to cut down on my prozac to every other day for a week and come back so i did just that and went back and now she has decided that its not in my best interest to start the new medication and its up to me if i want to even stay on the prozac so she gave me another prescription of prozac and said if i want to come back for more i can if not then take care. now i feel so alone not even the doctors want to no and it took me 3 years of hell to get up the courage to go to them i feel so alone what can i do?

I think that you've interpretted what the doctor said in the wrong way. She was most likely trying to indirectly make you gain more control over your own life, instead of her making all of your decisions for you. What exactly is the problem with taking care of your own medication needs and figuring out if you would like a higher dosage or not? She has given you permission - effectively - to monitor your own progress and make judgement calls. If anything, it shows that she trusts you.

Kevin

hello thank you for replying i think maybe i did take it the wrong way it just felt that maybe i was going to be getting somewhere then all of a sudden they stopped helping i just needed something to help me help myself i understand that its all down to me and that no medication will probably ever help but i have no idea where to start in trying to make life easier as i have trouble with people i hate being around them i tend to get angry and lash out which i no only i can control ive tried time and time again and have failed everytime i dont mean to hurt people its not my intention i would love to be able to get on with people but it just never happens i guess i was just looking for help and advise from them to give me a starting point.

All that you've said in your last post - Have you said it to your doctor in the past? You were diagnosed with something you disagree with, but think back and try to remember if you actually mentioned everything that is genuinely on your mind. Also, I believe that shifting between meds will never help you in the long term. Citalopram is one of the 'better' drugs out there, but it sure as hell takes a long time for its effects to become noticeable. Try to 'knuckle down', as they say, by taking your meds and each day and concentrating on sorting out your anger. Citalopram should actually be good for 'quenching' anger - it worked for me at least. It turned me from a person who threatened others to a person who feels sad about killing flies and other bugs.

Kevin

lostsoul88 wrote:now i feel so alone not even the doctors want to no and it took me 3 years of hell to get up the courage to go to them i feel so alone what can i do?

You have us, as friends, we will help you. Maybe some other mood stabilizer is in order. I need something other than anti-depressants, or so I think. I was diagnosed with BPD recently, but in the past anti-depressants had not sat well, so someone said I might be bipolar. You might need to try something different. Try another doctor.