Feel Like I'm Losing It

I'm wondering if this is BPD creeping up on me right now.

So, here is what is going on. I have these treatments that I have to take for my interstitial cystitis, whenever I take them I am usually hurting throughout the rest of that day and the next. I was planning to do a treatment tonight, but then my mom calls and reminds me about fathers day tomorrow and how we were going out to eat and could I wait on my treatment. The thing is I don't really want to wait, I've been hurting really badly, but I could put it off.
Now, I feel tormented about whether to put it off and go tomorrow or go ahead and do it and not go tomorrow. My dad says he is fine either way. But I can't stop obsessing over what to do.

Please help. I feel like I'm going insane here.

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Chucky

Hi rose,

Hope you're feeling better today. Just at face value, the situation you describe is a legitimate stressor. It's called triangulation, in case a label helps you. Triangulation causes confusion and anxiety even for the most Non-esque. It would be a really good idea for you to write the whole episode out, including how you dealt with it, and what went down on Sunday. Then read it over and take it to your T. The more info for your T, the better. He or she can help you through it. Triangulation comes up throughout life and if it is common theme in your family dynamic, I can fully understand your feeling of "losing it." It's quite toxic.

Sorry you had to deal with that.

~Hi Rose,

I know its a while ago now, but I would have said your health comes first.
Your dad loves you and would prefer that you were well I'm sure/

Cystitis is awful - poor you. x