Do I have borderline personality disorder?

-i was raised in a Christian home where my mother was a Christian school teacher. now, my dads an alcoholic that drinks every night and my mom smokes marijuana.
-I am 17 and have engaged in sexual intercourse with 13 guys, 12 guys in the past year and 3 months, 9 of them just since the beginning of summer 2009.
-I have cut myself in the past.
-I was in an abusive relationship with my first love for a year. I gave him my virginity (when sex was extremely important to me) and he was my first kiss.
-Every guy I have slept with since my first love I was either drunk or high when I decided to have sex.
-I've allowed up to four guys to run train on me at once. I've had 2 multi-men sexual experiences.
-I often feel misunderstood. Like maybe I dont even know who I am.
-I have severe anger issues. I don't care where I am, if I'm mad, I'm making a scene.
-I shoplift almost every time I enter a store.
-I have lied to my best friend about sleeping with 2 of those men because they were "off limits."
-I lie sometimes for no reason.
-I push every guy away from me.
-I find it very hard to communicate with others. Like, I just don't know what to say or what to talk about because I feel like no one is like me.
-Everything I was taught while I was growing up I now know was a lie. I barely believe in God anymore. But I can't decide if I do or don't.
-I smoke marijuana habitually.
-I also do pills whenever available.
-I get along with no one at my school and sometimes when I walk into the school, I either feel extreme anger or undescribable depression.
- I sometimes feel so confident and beautiful, but then other times I feel like guys only want me for sex and I will never find happiness.
-I trust no one in this world. Not even myself.

These are just a few of my problems that plague me every day..but i'm not sure what exactly they mean. Help?

Edit: I forgot to state I suffered from silent anorexia for about a year while in the abusive relationship and sometimes, if I'm stressed, wont eat still. And I am extremely obsessed with my looks and will not go into public looking anything less than the best that I can.

Firstly, there are no professionals here to say if you have BPD or not; but one thing you mentioned stood out: You mentioned that you smoke marijuana 'habitually'. How 'habitually' exactly? Drugs (even 'light' ones like marijuana) have been shown to induce abnormal mental states in people. So, I think that if tyou manage to stop that, then you'll have made a big leap forward. Stopping is not as easy as it sounds, of course, but you should at least try to just smoke progressively less of it, okay?

Also, I kind of gathered (or felt) from reading your post that you do things even if you dont really want to. Is this right or... ...? The problem with this is that others can latch onto people like yuo and manipulate you as they please. So, maybe you should grab hold of the reigns of your life and start to enjoy saying 'no' to people - i.e. only do things that you want to do.

Sorry if any of this has sounded condescendign.

Take care,
Kevin

I would say yes if you are terrified of abandonment (you didn't mention it), that seems to be the #1 characteristic of BPD. Perhaps you have HPD/BPD co-morbid.