burly wrote:But... and this is the thing that confuses me... let's say a BPD person is either all "black" or "white" on you... are they ACTING or are they really believing what they're saying? Because it seems like if you call a BPD person on a lie, they can get pretty pissy fast.
I was having dinner with this BPD girl I know the other night (a good friend, we had a thing over the summer but now she's back with her ex). The last couple of times we've had any drinks the talk has gotten pretty heated and at some point I get cheesed off because it FEELS like I'm getting played. I'll say something slyly pointing to this and she starts getting emotional. I can tell that things are going on in her head but I can't tell if she's lying or not. I start getting a little cold, she gets almost to the point of tears, and then about five minutes later (I'm walking her home) she literally breaks down on the street.
STILL I can't tell if she's being dramatic on purpose or she's genuinely emotional over something that was said or is just going into BPD mode. I mean, what's the difference from "genuine" emotion and a "splitting" anyhow?
When I act I know the difference between real and fake, dear. I can't speak for all Borderlines but I don't have a problem with the distinction. I think the difference you're having problems with is "lying" and "acting". You aren't lying to an audience when you portray a character well. Sure, you're displaying the characteristics in a believable manner but anyone can tell you that it's not real.
Now, she might be playing you without realizing it. Or if she does realize it, maybe that's what she wants to be the truth and is trying to convince herself of that. Of course she's going to get emotional when you invalidate her self-image (whether realistic or not) because well, Borderlines tend to be randomly emotional. That's not really something she can control (I say not really because with therapy you can learn control). She might not be lying because it's become the truth for her. It might not be the truth that you know but that's getting into the subjective-perspective side of what's real and what isn't. Anyone caught in a lie is bound of overreact but Borderlines tend to take everything personally to the point of ridiculousness. Either way, if you actually wanted that to end well, a little acting on your own part probably would have made her not freak out. Not saying you should because honesty's an awesome thing and she probably needed to hear that you didn't believe her lie.
I would also have to agree with Asphyx on their comment.