If you could live without being borderline…

… would you want to?

This poll is meant specifically for people with borderline.

Oblomov, this is one of ten polls you are doing in ten different forums (NPD, BPD, HPD, etc.). How are you intending to use the results?

WOW, I'm surprised no one voted 'yes'.

I voted "Yes". Most of my life, I have wished to be "normal". OK, so maybe there is no "normal", but feeling - as I still do at times - like a soul born on the "wrong planet", I would almost give anything to be "one of the pack" - not to feel so lonely, so obviously "out of place" - trying, at all times to put on a "normal" act.

I wonder what normal is these days... Its tiring always having to act happy and OK. but if i dont my friends get either worried or mad...and i cant deal with people getting mad..

I voted yes. The problem is that I have no idea what that would look like. Who would I be if I didn't grow up with the depression, anxiety, and insecurities that I did? I have no sense of self, so imagining my life without BPD or whatever it is that has been plaguing me all this time is kind of hard to imagine.

I can't really answer this straight because it's like this: I want to get better, but I'm afraid that if I ever do get "better" that I won't know who I am. Not knowing myself is scary to me.

I suppose i think this as a tough one simply because just now im at the stage where i dont care and im happy to be doing what im doing, other than being so alone at times. At the same time i wish i could have normal friendships and not get overly attached to someone that i have to be in contact with them day and night. I also wish i could learn to hold back some of my thoughts because things that i can talk quite openly about like its nothing e.g previous overdoses and self harm. People get frightened and run a mile.