Boyfriends and prostitutes..

Why is it that we need always boyfriend relationships? Like, one after another...

How do we even find these men willing to take us on , for there own selfish reasons..or whatever it may be..

Im so lonely..i find myself walking the streets..so people think im a prostitute and will stop and look at me and give me attention.. but i wont get in the cars with no one..im just that lonely..thats pathetic..but is any one else like this??

I'm probably stating the obvious, but it would be safer if you tried to meet guys somewhere else, I dunno like the mall or a concert ( I've been out of the dating scene myself for some time) or according to whatever your other interests & hobbies are.

Since you're chosing this option of walking the streets (and I take it at night?)
that shows you need more inner healing. Even if you aren't actually getting in any cars, you are taking risks that you don't have to.
Looking back, I realize I used to put myself (or allow myself to be put) in risky dangerous situations because I felt no one really cared about me- so why should I care about myself? Now I see differently.

Even if you don't have someone regularly telling you they care, and that you are of worth... you do have value! So, please stay safe and choose a better way to meet guys.

Yes, I've felt like this lots of times.

It's like you'll pounce on the first man that gives you eye contact.

It's scary

Feeling an empty void is a big part of borderline that you have to overcome if you want to recover. I agree that the streets are dangerous and you know by now that having sex doesn't make you feel any less alone once the guy is gone. I'm actually a weird borderline...I didn't use sex for attention at all. When I felt empty and lonely, I usually put up a borderline tantrum...got weepy, maybe called somebody to say I felt suicidal (although I was too chicken to do anything about it), did a lot of crying. When I was divorced, I did go from boyfriend to boyfriend, but I was kind of picky and didn't have that much sex. It was because I was afraid I couldn't make it without the backup of a significant other there to bail me out when I got into a hole.

Are you in therapy? You could get a serious STD if you keep on that way.