The best and worst of it...

I guess the best part of dealing with BPD is that my incredibly chameleon like nature means that I have an extensive set of hobbies (I tend to take on whatever my friends are into if I'm not careful).

The hardest part is accepting that the way that I see relationships is not the way the world sees them. Also the chameleon thing gets unnerving too sometimes.

Anyone else want to play?

I guess the best part of dealing with BPD is that my incredibly chameleon like nature means that I have an extensive set of hobbies (I tend to take on whatever my friends are into if I'm not careful).

i find that i can assimilate wathever mind i can get in touch with... i think it blows. so anyways.

The hardest part is accepting that the way that I see relationships is not the way the world sees them. Also the chameleon thing gets unnerving too sometimes.

yes, i also see relationships whould be love.. but everyone is afraid of love...everyone is 99%. then we love. so somehow...somehow, we've got to play with anxiety, people like when you're anxious around them, somehow it makes them feel alright i guess...i guess love is complex to say--i dont know.

is it a chamaleonic thing, to accept people? to know them? and if so..could you understand everyone?and what's that away from normal? and how old are ya?

IF you had to choose between assimilating one mind or involuntarily assimilating...which one would you be? and for how long?

would you choose your average common thing? the ones who you love? or find intelligent? define intelligence.

would you choose a mentally ill people simply cause they're not normal? simply cause they're poets? or ###$ up? would you tell me that im just writing this as a matter of poetry? would you know that i know?

what is missing?
what is missing?
friendships? no
love? yes
work? no
money? no
art? yes
love? yes

love love love love love love love love
frown frown frown frown

loneliness...breaks ya? pf..

la soledad del camaleon partido.

smile at me
smile at me an i'll love ya
smile at me and i'll pretend that i love you
but it's only cause i know that you expect too much from me
you're only expecting me to enjpoy myself before i can have you
before i can make love.

love love love love.