I can’t believe I acted like that...

I was such an asshole to this guy last night, and i’ve been thinking about my actions ever since. We matched on tinder (dating app), and we were talking dirty to each other. I was horny so I decided to message him and ask him for pics and he said no. I replied saying “why, because your ass is flat?” Which was actually so gross. I can’t believe I said something so absurdly disgusting and what feels to be predatory. I’ve never been like that towards another guy before, but in the moment I felt so angry and rejected because we were dirty talking earlier then all the sudden he said “no” to me as if I was some kind of freak. He ended up telling me not to tell him what to do which made me more mad so I just blocked him. I’ve never even been the hook up type either, so this is all so odd to me. Give me some advice please guys.

Are you diagnosed with BPD? Then its normal for you to overreact impulively. If you are not diagnosed then you should take a deep breath and think before you type a message like that (which was not that bad that you should worry about it that much).

Yeah I am diagnosed BPD. Honestly I over analyze everything I do and feel like a terrible person because of it.

I don’t feel like I DO bad actions, I feel like I AM bad.

I don't think you are bad. Thats overthinking.

i dont think you over reacted. it's difficult to read emotions in chat, so we cant be sure in what tone he said 'dont tell me what to do'.