Self-Sabotage

So, i don't know who the ###$ i am.
i self sabotage every damn identity i can come off with.
if im depressed i self sabotage (always comes back anyways)
if i develop certain dx, with time i end up boring it and i self sabotage and say i don't belong to this $#%^ anymore (i feel i dont belong anymore)

the only plae i belong is here, ######6 borderline. i also seem to self sabotage everything. and also this forums is dead. i'd jus like to know if someone here deals with this and how they deal with it.

i even self sabotaged the suicidal self, but i got a death wish, it's like i say i cant believe i wrote that $#%^, or i cant believe i liked this.

is there a way to maintain a stable ID? regards. as this is where i belong, i got not much to say though, except i dont know why im ######6 alive.

Hey,

Did you ever consider that being around this environment is having an adverse affect to you? Maybe if you stepped away from diagnoses, medications, 'self-sabotaging', suicide, etc., then you will have more time to do what you really want to do in life. Don't tell me that all you want to do is to die; that's not a valid answer. There must be something that you want to do in this world, away from all of this crap here. What is it?

Take care,
Kevin.

There must be something that is uniquely you. A diagnosis isn't you. Everyone has an identity. Find it, cherish it, and protect it!

I have that problem, but its not problem for me anymore. I cant tell you how I deal with it, cause I just dont.
I came to conclusion that maybe having no identity is my identity. Like in color spectrum, black(no color) is sum of all colors. Were universal, I'll take that as advantage.
One sign of no identuty is talent for imitation. You can be whoever you want. I wouldnt bother much with sabotage, maybe thats just out of boredom being in one state too long.
And I overcame the need to belong, I'm nobody so I dont belong anywhere........exept to God

so......wtf happend to your post yeh, I know I saw it and now its gone, didnt read the whole thing cause I run out of time then :/