julllia wrote:I can do that too. I call a someone to vent. If i call mother we can even end up fighting,makes me more upset sometimes. lol .I change mood. I feel i haven't get over it completely deep down.
Because it goes more to snap out of it,there is no solution in the big picture
-- Tue Apr 24, 2018 6:03 pm --
I don't disappear it completely.i do scream and stuff or might show it and then change mood and forget it completely. But i have some impression that a part is numbing it
I wouldn't call a friend when I am really mad.. because I know that would make other people mad too.. it's like throwing them the anger bomb... changing mood and forget about it does sound like numbing to me

I took the time to feel sad, to feel mad, to write about it to you all on the forum.. and I am feeling much less numb than before.. I feel like the more I am facing and being aware of my emotions, the less numb I am.. which makes it better for me to connect with people I guess
I don't have hope, so God reaches out and gives me hope.
I don't feel loved, so God found me and shows me His never failling love.
I don't feel happy, so God shows me what happiness can be like..
*The Darkest Night Brings the Brightest Stars*