I have really bad bpd and i am at my wits end

Hi all
so for the past year i had been throwing up with abdominal pains for a while now and the past three days i have been none stop vomiting not eating or sleeping im terrified of getting sick because i am scared of no one being able to help me. Finally at the hospital the doctors told me i have severe bpd and my anexity as well as deppresion and anger has been off the charts. Im at my wits end i dont know what to do anymore i feel like im loosing my mind and no one will be able to help me. I cant even go to school anymore because i cant bare to sit in a classroom. Please help

even i was struggling a lot in the beginning. i still am with anger and anxiety issues. have cried on streets.

the anxiety is scary. if i had to talk with my boss, i'd rehearse the conversation in my head a few times before approaching the boss.

what helped me: talking to myself. it calmed me down. not watching tv also helped. but mostly talking to myself that i'm there. it's going to be all right. it's okay. dont worry, i'm right here.

i'd also image to have giant wings that i'd wrap around myself like that guy from x-men who has wings.
that made me feel safe.