i have no motivation n cant stabilize my career

i've changed 4 fields in the past 1 year. now i dont want to do anything. i've switched career from engineering to writing to trying hand at teaching n then back to engineering n now again writing.

its like i dont have a stand n its frustrating. i dont know how to be sure.

right now i have zero motivation to try and do something. i just pick it and give up then go to something else.

how to be sure in life? like how to just stick with it and go ahead.

I understand. I have often had big changes in who i wanted to be and who i was.

How to be sure in life? I don't really think it matters if you are sure or not. But you have to stick to something first, because otherwise you will have nothing in the end.
It is better to have *something* and then build on that / then do what you *really* want... than to have nothing alltogether.

Yeah... but it just feels that what if it's all a waste. ur right though. it's better to at least have something. i'm struggling with higher studies. i dont want to go as such as i'm not interested in engineering. funny i was interested a week ago but not now.
i want to study in india but am not getting admission. i got admission in german univ. but i dont want to go. i would rather study in india. it's way more comfortable.

I remember you writing something about a german university a while ago. So you have admission again?

Yes it's the same University. I tried to get admission in India but failed. Now I wish to go back to my old job but they don't have any vacancy.

I applied to this uni cause my friend applied n I had black m white thinking.now I don't want to go to Germany.

The mood swings are driving me crazy. I have no real life friends n I can't handle the thoughts in my head. They just don't stop.