Has anyone else kinda given up on meeting people?

my problem is that although i know logically things but i can't feel them emotionally. i mean even if practically you can be friends but emotionally you can't connect if you feel like this and you do not want them and feel alone

Yeah, I did completely, just a few years earlier because of personal problems.
I do have a small and select group of friends, but I did gave up meeting new people and making them my "friends" because that behaviour only brought me pain in the past.