I want to die

I don’t want to live like this anymore. I’m a monster and all I do is hurt the people that mean the most to me.

You can improve and you will.

You're not a monster. The fact that you're aware of an action that has hurt somebody you love proves that.

Being aware of a person's pain and regretting causing the pain proves that you are an empathetic person. We all make mistakes, and sometimes our mistakes hurt others, but we can learn from them and apologise for the harm we've done.

Your life has value, and you deserve to live it. You're going to have so many more experiences, some may be negative, but there will be positive ones too. There is always a way out of pain, there is always a solution to any problem, even though it may seem very hard to find right now, I promise you'll find it.

You are not a monster, you are a human being.

I'm sending you all my love and best wishes.

Seems we are in similar states of feeling at the moment. I too have been crying for three days, and feeling hopeless and worthless and wanting it all to go away. It is so painful when we are in these states. They feel so horrible and toxic and nothing seems like it will ever get better, that this is forever. 3 days I have been like this and it is not ending anytime soon.... but I am doing my best to hang in there if only for the children. When I am in such a painful emotional place it is excrutiating.... I know what you are going through.... but hang in there with me, let's just ride out this painful wave together until we reach the sandy shore. It can't last forever.

I'm sending you a cyber hug. Be well.

Hey, I feel similarly. But don't worry; we all have our worth and you have yours. You aren't a monster, I promise. Please message me if you need to talk about anything <3

Think about it: What would you change if you killed yourself? You would inflict enormous pain to your loved ones. Believe me, it is worth fighting. I have been in your shoes and now I am doing so much better than i first got diagnosed! I finished my studies and prepare myself for my master. I met girls (still no relationship though). I am going out with friends. I live my life as normally as possible. There is hope, please believe that. Suicide is no solution, it is out of question. What would your therapist do if you did that? He would feel betrayed, wouldn't he? You have to believe that everything can be cured if you work on yourself. Sending you lots of hugs and positive vibes <3

Love always,
X

So please believe me that if you really fight, if you keep fighting and get a lot of support from your therapist and family, you will for sure overcome the problem. If I did it, EVERY borderline can do it too. And you know, I am not an easy borderline patient. I am a heavy case of the PD. But now i am doing much better, therapy with the right therapist does wonders! Please, promise that you will keep fighting. You are no monster. You are just a person in pain. YOU HAVE THE STRENGTH TO OVERCOME THE PAIN!

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Kitnyre wrote:I don’t want to live like this anymore. I’m a monster and all I do is hurt the people that mean the most to me.

You are not a monster
you have self realization and that's a good thing, you need a little help and support