Re. EUPD and struggling...

I was diagnosed with EUPD a couple of years ago after a breakdown, caused by the end of a 10 year relationship, which was my only relationship, since I was 19. That resulted in selling my house and also leading to the closure of my business.

I've had a torrid time with the NHS, receiving zero treatment since, despite time spent in the psychiatric ward, suicide residential homes, repeated visits to the doctor, time in crisis and various a&e visits, some by ambulance.

Last week was the worst escapade after I self harmed, but cut my arm [mod edit] by accident, I could have bled to death. I waited an hour for an ambulance and luckily had my current partner with me to hold a shirt wrapped around my arm. Even now, I've received no treatment. Just to self refer to health in mind, but I've been rejected due to being too severe of a case!

What on earth do I do? I need treatment, help from somewhere. I don't care if I pay, I just don't want to pay £200 an hour for hypnotherapy and be ripped off. I'm desperate, so I'm liable to be taken advantage of.

I hope someone can offer some advice because I'm becoming a danger to myself and ruining my life. Not to mention those of my loved ones. After the breakdown, I pulled myself together and travelled the world. I came home and restarted my career. Unfortunately, since entering a new relationship this past year, things have gone down hill severely again.