Borderline and Bipolar

I have bipolar disorder and eatin disorders but struggle with who i am. I never can stay on med for very long as i persoally believe that i am not who i would appear to be. It often occurs to me there is 'me' in a coma or a hospital and i am simply a delusion. I can't find any information to support 'my' existence but then i suppose that is understandable.
I am trying to understand myself. At any one time in my life i totally latch onto one person, it used to be mum like figures but now it is father figures. (my family is very stable) I hate it because i depend totally upon them and as they are often tutors (uni) now the difficulties with criticism cause alot of stress. i also REALLY hate it when they have a child of similar age. UGH!!!!!!!! I am not sure where i am going but i guess that this isn't something that generally goes with bipolar and consequently i get a bit lost again. Does anyone else have the same experiences? It is common to have more than just bipolar?

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