BPD and facticious disorder

Hi,
is it normal that BPD sufferers do also have facticious symtoms? Like doing something just to go to ER?
I feel very bad about it, but I injured myself a couple of times to go to ER, I mean I had the will to injure myself but could have resisted, but I did not, because I wanted to go to ER (one time because I did not feel good because my physician scheduled visits from once every month to once in three month), I needed to see him, to feel good, not because I had any questions, but because it made me feel good, because he cared.
Is it totally normal? I feel very ashamed about it.

I don't think it is common but I have similar feelings.

My therapist says it is part of my BPD. I fear being abandoned so much that I want to hurt myself to get people to care.

In my case, I haven't done anything bad enough to go to hospital, but I have strong urges to do so.

The other week I took a very small overdose, because I wanted people to care about me.

I am ashamed of it too. I sympathise, because I know how bad it feels.

I also feel pathologically jealous of anyone who is ill. Because I want that attention. Do you have that too?

Hi,
thank you for your reply! Yes, I am also jealous if I see someone ill, but more injured, if they have a reason to go to hospital, nothing seriously, but maybe a broken bone or a wound that needs to be stiched. Although most of the times I was treated like $#%^ in the ER (mostly by nurses). Yes, I also want people to care about me, but i do not understand why I want foreigners to care about me? I do not want for example my parents to care for me regarding any illnesses or injuries, I cannot bear this, I never liked this, even when I was very young I never told my parents that I was sick (also not when I was sure that I have an illness that would kill me when not telling anybody). I very often think about my physician to care for me, it feels so good and I am very ashamed about it.

I don't talk to my parents about my illnesses either, but I want my friends to care. I want to be ill so that my friends won't leave me. Even though that drove away my best friend.

I've just been to visit a friend who has been in hospital for months after a heart attack. He was talking about it all and I just felt jealous. I feel awful about that, like I must be a really bad person.

It is somehow good to know that I am not the only one who feels like that, although I do not wish that anybody has to go through it.
Maybe I do not want friends to care about me because my friends are not that close, I do not want anybody of my friends to get more deeply involved in my disorder, because of the stigma associated with BPD.
I like to remember back the times when I was really sick, it was cruel, but on the other hand, that was the time my physican cared most, it made me in one way so happy, so I blend out the cruel times. It sounds maybe very sick...

No it doesn't.

We are different in one respect, you don't want people to know about your BPD, I do, because I want the attention of people feeling sorry for me.

It is hard to recover because I want to get sicker for the attention, not better.

I thought I had got over all this but I haven't.

I am more afraid that people think I am crazy instead of thinking I am ill, because I have no idea how my friends think about BPD.

I've done this. Most commonly I'll take a slight overdose and then wander to the ER, looking to be taken care of. I love being sick as well, like physically. I like when my eating disorder is to the point where I feel faint, or when I have a seriously deep cut because then I feel like I have a valid reason to ask for help.

I've heard that people with BPD will sometimes threaten self harm or suicide to gain sympathy, and I guess this is another, slightly less manipulative version.

i do not get validation and love out of this. i feel i am a burden and they are going to hate me if i am sick. i could never do it. i remember how much i hated others when they did it.
although i do had the feeling of wanting to get sick and die but not for attention,but more for validation of my pain,like to prove my pain.but i am also afraid to do it because it can bring more pain. i will not be able to work and be homeless.but is a way to show your pain when noone gives a $#%^. but not for attention.
if i do it for attention i feel hate from others and not love.except if i honestly feel so much pain that i want to die and is not for attention but to prove my pain.or that i honestly prefer to die