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I need your honest opinion or I'm going to cry.. Help?

Postby wolfgrave14 » Fri Mar 31, 2017 5:14 am

Look if you do your best possibility to help me, I'll make you glide down an emerald passage. I need your blunt opinion on the some of the private messages between me and my British mind totem girl from a year ago. I just really need to know if it seems genuine and real to you. I can feel my soul trying to crawl out of my eye sockets.

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Hey

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
Hiya x

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
How are you on this lovely night?

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
A little bit tipsy and very happy, you? (:

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Oh. I'm very much on the comfortable cloud. I can tell you'd have a very nicely textured aura.
Explain the tipsy and very happy part if you don't mind.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
I'd like to believe so, I always like having a small drink of wine and a smoke after i complete a chapter now and then. My little routine. The happy part stems from writing, it always clears my head of any negativity.

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Damn. You have thought about quit smoking, dear? And that's what happens when I complete a chapter of Plasma Ovule. So you live in England, right? I hope you know that both of leaders are Satanic shape-shifting reptilians that wants to warp and destroy human civilization.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
I have but it's not easy, I believe that will change in due time though. Yes I do, and I have the same theory but instead of completely destroying mankind i believe they will take us to the brink of entire destruction and then when we are at our weakest and then enslave us all o.o

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Oh yes! Finally someone who believes me. And you are right... On September 23, inter-dimensional demons are supposed to be coming through. Oh and have you ever been reincarnated before?

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
Hmm, unsure I do get recurring dreams of an alternate life in the 1900's I always wake up with a strange sense of deja vu. Have you?
I believe some have already been and stayed among us.

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Oh yes... I think I was a k9 in my past life. I have so many traits of a dog. I feel like I can sense your past was also an animal. Like something from the cold depths of Canada for some reason.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
Prehap a Lynx, I'd say I was more suited to the feline genetic line. Maybe it's just wishfull thinking though, I think you'd be suited to some form of wolf, I get that vibe

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Oh yes... I've been telling people that my spirit animal is a wolf. Hopefully one day, I'll get through the metaphysical world, so I can visit the fairy realm. Anyways, I have to go take my dog out for a walk. I think she might know how to read messages in clouds because of that one dream I had. It seems like I keep running into Lynx type of people for some reason...

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
Maybe somewhere along the line they were kindred spirits ^.^ I bet she can, im certain animals are more intelligent than most people know

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Oh yes. That's for sure. Have you ever came up your own spiritual ideas? I've wanted to have sex with a flower to feel transcendentalism internally. This one night, I stripped naked and covered my self in leaves and I placed my small lamp on my private area and when the sun arose, it felt like I was giving birth to light.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
Nothing that spiritual although I do frequently go out in the pouring rain at night in a vest and shorts and meditate among the flowers and trees (:

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
That sound beautiful. How would you describe your life? If I put you on edge just tell and if you don't actually want to talk to me then you can just quit replying, it's okay.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
Don't be silly :3 your fun to talk to, I actually just ha a big falling out with a friend thats why i took so long to respond btw ^.^ Hmm, simple yet fulfilling i think >.< what about yours?

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Oh no. It wasn't the long responses, I just felt like I was sensing that you wanted to get away from. I guess I'm kind of used to that kind of stuff. You're pretty fun to talk to as well. Mine is pretty isolating. I have to work at McD's. Don't eat there by the way. Their food gives people intestinal cancer. And I think they have Satanic Pedophile agenda going on. Do you have a job?

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
I did have, was going to college to but then I had my accident, everything's changed since. I suppose it's not so fulfilling anymore. To be honest i've been speaking to you the most out of the other people on here whos been messaging me, I always check yours first. You have a lovely vibe. I understand the isolating part as well, since my accident im a lot more closed in

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Awww, I'm sorry to hear that. You're such a majestic and beautiful person. Would you like to explain the accident?

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
It's actually due to my stupidity, at the time i was living in an apartment on the 3rd floor of the building, i had recently sprained my ankle and couldnt go outside but i wasnt aloud so moke indoors so i sat on the window pain lightly leaning against the window which had an old lock which was basically a #######5 wooden latch. Anyway the latch basically broke and i got a shock, leaned backwards and fell three storys down onto the pavement. Broke my spine in 2 places, broken my left leg and shattered the bones in my right. And broke my wrist..I can walk now though :) And im really not >.< but thank you x

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Oh that sucks... I guess it gives you more reasons to quit smoking altogether. Or you could have a bad luck sprite following you like a goblin or an imp. Today, I went to a diner and I accidentally shattered the pepper glass. Everyone was freaking out but I didn't care that much in all honesty. My isolation is actually caused by my paranoia.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
I'm definitely being hunted by some form of spirit, I've taken several images with the same blue orb around me in different locations, i lost most of the images when my old laptop broke. One of thems uploaded on here as my guardian cover. Same here minuse the pepper glass (:

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Hmmm.... It could be a demon of some sort. I'd like to perform a mystical ritual on you when the moon is full. I think I was once visited by a dream demon in my sleep one night, It was a doppelganger of me but it had an old lady's voice and it was talking about its vagina. I now wear a dream caster necklace and I used to have two rock crosses that I formed my self with the my ritual mask over my lamp in between the crosses to protect me but I think some entity stole my ritual mask.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
It's been with me from as young as I could remember, I was possessed once when i was very young, not sure on the exact age but I was around 7, My dad and his gf witnessed it, i don't remember any of it but he told me i rose up from the bed while asleep and just paused in mid air for around 10 minutes then suddenly dropped and when he rushed over i suddenly sat up with my eyes wide staring right at him and repeated "Where is my dad" over and over again for near an hour, he even told me him and his girlfriend went back to there room and was to scared to leave for the whole night. I was so intrigued, I wish I had some memory of it happening

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Oh damn... That sounds terrifyingly awesome. I know this isn't as intense as your demonic possession but there was this one night. I woke up because I heard realistic rat cryings. I was so scared by the sound. And what made things even creepier is that I had NO memory of falling asleep. I had my laptop on my stomach chest region as always and I had spilled beverage glass on the bed. I got up and it felt like my spirit was floating up in space and my body didn't feel like mine. I was so scared that I even started crying. But I now realize the crying rat symbolized me in the future because my gf at the time who had the spirit animal of the cat was going to hurt me in some way. It was a precognitive abstract audio.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
Wow that's so intense, it's like your subconscious had predicted the future and tried its best to warn you. Everyone says you and your subconscious are the same, but I disagree, i think there is a lot more to it than one person could ever know. Perhaps its a spirit entity trying to guide us through life, or part of our previous selves in previous lives...So many possibilities. There must be a way to find out more i just can't let it stay a mystery :( It's strange how much we seem to agree on seeing as our views are so unique to what the masses believe..

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Oh man, I wish I could hug you right now. I agree because I think we all have that guardian angel parasite hybrid in all of us or at least most of us. I also believe in keeping sex a beautiful and magical thing. If you want to have a spellbinding child then do that sexual ritual on an ancient burial ground and I do believe that the Earth is alive and it could be sentient like it could reproduce if it had individual movement towards the other planets and solar systems. This would explain why the Earth is literally dying off as we speak from all the pollution and dark energy. We have to be the voice for it. It is Mother Nature personified from my point of view. The masses are nothing more than brainwashed sheeple stooges. You can only feel sorry for them.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
:3 if only more people were like you, your thoughts are unlike that of any other, with a clear sense of reality and all its flaws. I've never had a conversation with another person and felt utterly amazed and agreed 100%. The destruction and eventual extinction of mankind will be brought upon itself whether its self destruction from the countless wars or by killing the earth it relies upon. Its so sad that we must destroy everything in our path.. It honestly brings a tear to my eye

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Wow... I've never been so connected with someone like this in quite a while. It's almost like a surreal dream state. I mean I could sense a magnetic force between us when I first saw you but a lot of the times, it's off point. Interesting. I wish I could meet you in real life. You're more of a female version of me than quarintine is TBH. With her, we do actually disagree on quite a bit but you're almost perfect. Like you're the only hope I've personally found in humanity.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
I must say, before we started speaking my faith in humanity was none existent.. But now the candle is re lit and so is my faith. Not even my closest of friends understand my thoughts on life and it's many faults and mystery's, I just hope I don't suddenly wake up to find you were a figment of my own imagination or subconscious. It is strange isn't it how out of the billions of people we ended up speaking to each other. Maybe there is such a thing as fate (:

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Well, thanks to you I now believe that the magnetic force is a real thing. The magnetic force is what brings you to your human key that gets you spiritually connected to the sun and goes the same for the other person. It's just destiny. I wanna do a grandiose cemetery ritual with you.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
I think I would like that :) Coincidence is just a means of explanation to life's bigger mysterys to those who have not opened up to their spirituality. To go through life without that sense of belief and purpose must be so sad. I was like that once but now I see clearly.

Alo I have just started a short poem but I don't know how to complete it and was hoping you could take a look? Or tell me to simply scrap it as i wouldn't mind. Yours the only opinion I would truly believe (:

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Greatly said with the view of "coincidence". Everything has a purpose.

Sure, show me the poem. I'm sure it'll be great. You haven't done anything that was just mediocre let alone bad though.

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
It's nothing special, I just started typing and this is what I ended up writing
"My dearest child
Look upon me as you cry
for no more shall you shed a tear
As I am here to bring awaken your third eye
No longer need you live alone in fear
For now you can only say goodbye
As the time has come to embrace those near
For the first time you will smile at tradgedy
And sing sweet songs of memories"

I'd love to hear more on your views on life or anything, it all seems to make me smile

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
I really like it. It sounds like a poem I'd tell to an offspring of mine as they're about to go into an astral realm. Definitely post it.

Well... Try to throw a subject you wanna hear about.

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Here's an intro to a movie that I originally wanted to make but I trashed it.

It's called "Deity to Mind Totem".

The film opens with a whole colony of sperm cells traveling through out an Autumn forest at night time. The farther they go, the more the sperm cells combust until we are left with three survivors. The three last sperm cells come to an halt when a grandiose anthropomorphic wolf raises its arm out in command. This is the "Yah-weh" of the siblings. The wolf then lowers its arm down at which the sperm cells land on a "target" cell. The wolf then lets out a majestic howl to construct the sperm cells into fetuses. The longer the metamorphosis goes on, the more the infants' flaws become more apparent. One fetus suffers from harlequin ichthyosis and another one suffers from hydrocephalus. However, the other one appears to be fine but he is very flawed in a more "identity" way. The more the fetuses form with the potent howl, the more the wolf deity becomes physically scarred until his right arm falls off and the infants are complete and "ready" for their world. However, inside the physically normal infant's brain is an enigmatic throne room. The throne grows a ghostly pale Italian man like an eggplant. He walks up and sings an Italian opera style song that activates a force field around the "normal" infant's frontal lobe. Once the Italian man is done, he goes back and sits on the throne on full guard

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
I liked it too I just can't think of a suitable ending for some reason.. :( One day I'd love to create something together, i think our minds could create something very beautiful

Hmm a have a few ideas, just pick which one you'd prefer. Death the inevitability we all must face, Love and reproduction as I'm a girl and its my instinct ^.^ or our over all and individual purpose in life, or anything else there just the 3 things i've been thinking about most lately

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
Wow, I .. I must hear more. Whenever i read anything you've written I get this feeling deep inside that it must be true. Everything you say is just so .. I can't think of the right words. It's like you see what the rest of us cannot and put it into words we can all understand. If you were a god i can happily say you would be the one id follow. Hope that isn't too odd for you :')

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
How about this for the ending "The root between us will never severed
for you will always be the sunflower to my soil"

Hmmm... I'll definitely go with the death one as I've felt like I've already discussed love in a mystical and abstract way. Well, I believe that we never truly die. It's just that there's many phases for us. Each life is like a caterpillar but we got to find that life that makes us the magnificent butterfly. The life where you achieve the ultimate obligation. Reincarnation is one of my favorite things. I believe that dogs are our guardian angels in a physical form which is why they can sense cancer and help out humanity so much. Which is why I think they're called "Man's best friend". And I'd love to create ANYTHING with you. <3

Eternal Devotion
Eternal Devotion
1 Year Ago
I love it, it has such a sweet and endless love feeling to it but id feel bad using it seeing as you thought of it but If you'd like me to use it you must get half the credit as without it it would have been only a partial story which now is complete thanks to you

Out of the three suggestions i think you chose the perfect one as it's the one i hold the most dear, and the way you spoke about it was the way i would have tried to, if I could have found the words. You are most captivating. And that makes me very happy ^_^ We shall when we can. Although I need a lot more practice to come to your level as i wouldn't want to bring anything down to a lower level of standards that you have created <3

Cody
Cody
1 Year Ago
Mia! You and me together should create a beautiful cult. You'd be the queen and I'd be the king. It would be the best damn cult ever. We would have the power. We would keep building up until it's an army to take down the Illuminati. I feel like you'd be the true heart and soul of it. But I do not want to be worshiped. You're too amazing to be a worshiper. We both have the minds and spirits to be on the same platform.
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I have quite a bit wrong with me..
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Re: I need your honest opinion or I'm going to cry.. Help?

Postby jaus tail » Fri Mar 31, 2017 5:44 am

Sounds like a good friendship. Even i exchanged messages with many people here. They were fun.
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Re: I need your honest opinion or I'm going to cry.. Help?

Postby Echinacea » Sat Apr 01, 2017 6:53 pm

jaus tail wrote:Sounds like a good friendship. Even i exchanged messages with many people here. They were fun.


Hes not on about this site jaus :)
(better not be) lol

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Even i cant read all that atm ...Wow is all i say for now
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Re: I need your honest opinion or I'm going to cry.. Help?

Postby pleasnpetrichor » Sun Apr 02, 2017 7:34 am

Okay. Bluntly...

You sound like a needy, unstable, attention seeker and she sounds like some sort of con artist trying to play you.

Part of me wonders if you're making the whole thing up.

Another part is ashamed of giving in and feeding your obvious need for attention but after reading the whole thing I felt I deserved it.
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Postby Lusid » Sun Apr 02, 2017 1:27 pm

You got ###$ by a person on the internet. Deal with it dude. It's words on a screen...
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Postby geminigirl85 » Sun Apr 02, 2017 1:46 pm

I'm not sure what I was reading it the context in which to read it. Was that a conversation between two people, or was it a script of some kind? I confess I didn't read but the first twenty lines of so, it just rambled too much. Perhaps some editing next time? Or *brief* intro explaining the content?
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Re: I need your honest opinion or I'm going to cry.. Help?

Postby wolfgrave14 » Sun Apr 02, 2017 8:15 pm

pleasnpetrichor wrote:Okay. Bluntly...

You sound like a needy, unstable, attention seeker and she sounds like some sort of con artist trying to play you.

Part of me wonders if you're making the whole thing up.

Another part is ashamed of giving in and feeding your obvious need for attention but after reading the whole thing I felt I deserved it.

Don't ######6 call me an attention seeker. I was in a frantic mood that night.
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Re: I need your honest opinion or I'm going to cry.. Help?

Postby Echinacea » Mon Apr 03, 2017 4:45 pm

wolfgrave14 wrote:Don't ######6 call me an attention seeker. I was in a frantic mood that night.


Mod message
I will comment on this myself...

I had my suspicions that the post would create tension as i see it has.
When "Some" ASPD visit the BPD forum it will create this, "is it true" is the "member bored" etc...

If any one can understand "frantic moods" its us. but members here will have questions about it ..to get answers we ask the right questions and yes you did that.

Sometime we dont get the replies we hope for (we dont either sometimes) but that doesnt mean you can come in all guns blazing coz you dont like the comment. this isnt the ASPD forum "remember"
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Re: I need your honest opinion or I'm going to cry.. Help?

Postby Courtier » Mon Apr 03, 2017 5:16 pm

I certainly hope that my posts are not received in the same way, madam Marple :)
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Postby Echinacea » Mon Apr 03, 2017 5:24 pm

Courtier wrote:I certainly hope that my posts are not received in the same way, madam Marple :)


You speaking with my father ?
he called me miss Marple last night lol
Madam Marple makes me sound old :shock:

i will reword it ..i was meant to say "some"
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