Coping With Being Alone - Tips?

One thing I have been struggling with a lot lately is being alone.

Long story short, I got of a 6-week inpatient program two weeks ago and have been staying with my mother while I stabilise. However, my mum is trying to get me to start spending time in my own place again, because she's basically getting sick of me.

The two times I've tried to spend the night alone I've become very distressed, suicidal, convinced she and my family hate me, and self harmed. These were some of my biggest breakdowns ever, so obviously this is something I need to work on.

Has anybody dealt with similar reactions to loneliness, and do you have any tips?

Thank you.

i like being alone. it allows me to talk to myself. yeah at times i feel lonely as in everyone have friends but i'm alone but its just one of the bad consequences of being alone which otherwise has many positives for me.

I experience that to some extent but not as strongly as you do. What helps me is to force my mind to think rationally about the symptoms of bpd because it helps me see how irrational my panic is. The feeling is very real, we are all familiar with the horrible distress and agony of being left alone with nothing but our own mind but it calms me down a little knowing that although it feels very real I am actually okay. No one suddenly hates me and I will not be forgotten and alone for the rest of my life even if I feel like that at that moment.

//edit: I had it much worse before but understanding the nature of bpd has helped me a lot

You can learn to be alone by finding things you enjoy to do by yourself - like movies, tv series, reading, drawing, cooking and other hobbies. But since you just got out of a 6 week inpatient program, maybe you are not able to spend too much time alone right now because you just spent so much time in a clinical setting with people with you 24/7. Maybe you can get a pet to help with your being alone? I have 6 cats and they really help me with not feeling alone.

I think a cat would do wonders for you, if you like them. I'm alone probably 17/24 hours out of the day, if not the full 24 hours. I find my dog and cats help me, but also coming on here. Even just getting out and doing something small, like getting coffee or getting a couple groceries helps me out. I mean talking to the cashier doesn't last long, but it helps me.