Nightfure wrote:I don't know if it's generally common with people with BPD, but I sure do. I won't get mad at big issues, but sometimes it feels like the smaller the issue the more likely I am to blow up at it.
Usually I think it's because I've let a lot of other issues build up over time, and that small thing is sort of like the straw that breaks the camel's back, so to speak. But sometimes, like oceane said, I get angry because it reminds me of something that's already happened, or of another point in time I had to deal with something similar.
I understand completely, especially the straw metaphor, sometimes I feel like the straw metaphor will come into my life with something in medium to extreme level.
-- Sat Jan 07, 2017 6:02 pm --
LemonCake wrote:I can tell you that yes, a word, a picture, a piece of memory can trigger a storm for a BPD, especially when it's connected with previous stuff. from rather calm or even happy to bursting with rage. it's as if one minor thing 'contaminates' everything and turns it into something awful.
There were some interesting words which i've found once:
'Mix a tablespoon of wine with a barrel of dirty water. You'll get dirty water.
Mix a barrel of wine with a tablespoon of dirty water. You'll get dirty water.'
(The opposite might happen, too. I get overjoyed by small things. For example, I managed to tie my laces correctly for the first time a few days ago. It felt incredible. And I wanted to celebrate that moment by doing something special. Yeah.. But my happiness all disappeared after half an hour, because I dropped a piece of chocolate on the floor. And I ended up drinking alone that evening, because I'm an idiot.
Ugh, only now do I realize how dumb this sounds. well..)
off-topic: like the Joy Division profile picture a lot. I listen to 'She's lost control' so often. And 'Love will tear us apart'.
Thanks for the reply, I listen to dark music for the most part, like anything goth or just dark, not necessarily heavy, but I do like heavy.
I just thought it was me who was the ridiculous one, I picked Borderline PD to post this because I have a somewhat understanding about it, no doctor has confirmed it, but it's pretty obvious I have an unstable personality. (That's how I would describe myself, not saying all people that have it are whatever you wanna call it but ya.)
-- Sat Jan 07, 2017 6:03 pm --
Thanks to all who replied!