Songs that remind you of BPD *potential TW*

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-- Wed Feb 10, 2016 6:59 pm --

Red Like Roses Pt. 2 - Jeff Lee Williams and Casey Lee Williams

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=euuxPokAeIA

I couldn't take it couldn't stand another minute
I couldn't bear another day without you in it
All of the joy that I had known in my life
Was stripped away from me the minute that you died

To have you in my life was all I ever wanted
But now without you I'm a soul forever haunted
Can't help but feel that I had taken you for granted
No way in hell that I can ever comprehend this

I wasn't dreaming when they told me you were gone
I was wide awake and feeling that they had to be wrong
How could you leave me when you swore that you would stay
Now I'm trapped inside a nightmare every single ######6 day

It's like a movie but there's not a happy ending
Every scene fades black and there's no pretending
This little fairy tale doesn't seem to end well
There's no knight in shining armor who will wake me from the spell

I know you didn't plan this
You tried to do what's right
But in the middle of this madness
I'm the one you left to win this fight

Red like roses
Fills my head with dreams and finds me
Always closer
To the emptiness and sadness
That has come to take the place of you

I know you're broken down by anger and by sadness
You feel I left you in a world that's full of madness
Wish I could talk to you if only for a minute
Make you understand the reasons why I did it

I want to tell you that you're all that ever mattered
Want you to know that for eternity I'm shattered
I tried so hard just to protect you but i failed to
And in a prison of abandonment I've jailed you

I never planned that I would leave you there alone
I was sure that i would see you when I made it back home
And all the times I swore that it would be okay
Now i'm nothing but a liar and you're thrown into the fray

This bedtime story ends with misery ever after
The pages are torn and there's no final chapter
I didn't have a choice I did what I had to do
I made a sacrifice but forced a bigger sacrifice on you

I know you've lived a nightmare
I caused you so much pain
But baby please don't do what i did
I don't want you to waste your life in vain

Red like roses
Fills my head with dreams and finds me
Always closer
To the emptiness and sadness
That has come to take the place of you

You're not the only one who needed me I thought you understood
You were the one i needed and you left me as I always feared you would
Would I change it if I could?
It doesn't matter how
The petals scatter now
Every nightmare just discloses
It's your blood that's red like roses
And no matter what I do
Nothing ever takes the place of you

Red like roses
Fills my head with dreams and finds me
Always closer
To the emptiness and sadness
That has come to take the place of you

Robbie Williams - Feel

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_-XychEyz8

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
I don't wanna die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her

Scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming
I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel
Real love and the love ever after
I can not get enough

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste

I just wanna feel
Real love and the love ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand

Anything by Cazuza
Eu Queria Ter Uma Bomba
Solidão a dois de dia
Faz calor, depois faz frio
Você diz "já foi" e eu concordo contigo
Você sai de perto, eu penso em suicídio
Mas no fundo eu nem ligo

Free Translation
Together alone at the morning.
It is hot and than cold.
You say "it's gone" and I agree with you.
You get ( a little) away, I think about suicide
But deep down I don't even care.

Lol, I was actually thinking about starting this thread myself last night.

I have a playlist consisting of 78 songs on my phone, but a few to name:

Marina and the diamonds - I'm a ruin
A will away - Be easy
Marina and the diamonds - Blue
Lana Del Rey - Born to die
Marina and the diamonds - Happy (positive thoughts!)
ONE OK ROCK - Heartache
The story so far - Heavy gloom
Bring me the horizon - Avalanche
Bring me the horizon - Hospital for souls
Neck deep - Lime st.
Transit - Loneliness burns
Melanie Martinez - Mrs. potato head
Transit - Rest to get better
Lana Del Rey - Without you
The Maine - 24 floors

Check them out!

"if I could paint your picture, I'd paint you as the sea
I'd let your arms become the tide
if I could fall into you, I'd let you swallow me
so I could see you from the inside"
- Black Light Burns (Cruel Melody)

"you may find that my appetite gets it's way
it keeps growing and growing
before you know it, I'm a beast swallowing prey
and it is clear, it is clear, it's as clear as a ######6 bell
the more I wear off on you, the more I seem to wear your smell
get away and save yourself, turn away and don't look back
get away and save yourself, grey skies are turning black
'cause I will always hurt everyone I love
if I were you, I'd run away, 'cause it's true
that I will always hurt everyone I love
I'm aching for you, but you're bound to bleed if I adore you"
- Black Light Burns (Coward)

"there is a game I play, try to make myself okay
try so hard to make the pieces all fit
smash it apart, just for the ###$ of it
bye bye oooh, got to get back to the bottom
bye bye oooh, the big come down isn't that what you wanted?"
- Nine Inch Nails (The Big Come Down)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0KrImGtd-AM

I hate you, don't leave me -- Demi Lovato

"I hate you, don't leave me
I feel like I can't breathe
Just hold me
Don't touch me"

" Confused and scared I am terrified of you
I admit I am in and out of my head
Don't listen to a single word I've said
Just hear me out before you run away, 'cause I can't take this pain"

"I'm addicted to the madness
I'm a daughter of the sadness
I've been here too many times before
Been abandoned, and I'm scared now
I can't handle another fall out
I am fragile; just washed upon the shore.

They forget me
Don't see me
When they love me, they leave me"

The Front Bottoms - The Plan (###$ the Jobs)

I ######6 hate
The comments
Why do you feel you have to talk?
Nobody asked
For your opinion
Your sick sad way of jerking off
Everyone you think you´re better than
What the ###$
I´m guilty too
Half the time that I´m complaining
I´m just talking $#%^ on you (I´m sorry)

Never underestimate
The poor, hungry, and desperate
My body is a temple;
How much do you think I can get for it?
And I will take cold showers
From now on until I learn
That once you ###$ with the fire
All that´s left to do is burn
Baby, burn, baby, burn
[Pre-Chorus]
I could feel myself falling from an aeroplane
I hear static when I close my eyes
I imagine one day, things settling
And I think about what that might be like

´Cause I love you
(When my mind is uncertain)
I miss you
(My body decides)
I wanna hug and kiss you
(What it will do to get through the hell of life)
Oh I love you
(As I trip on the ocean)
I miss you
(That leads through your eyes)
I wanna hug and kiss you
It´s alright

I want world domination
Just like everybody else
So if you hear me talking strategy
Aw, it´s only to myself
Everybody's got to have a game plan
Cut it up a couple different ways
Just hope no one remembers these
The darkest of my days

When my mind is uncertain, my body decides

Potential Trigger Warning!! : I turn to Alanis Morrisette and Evanescence music mostly. Relatable Music helps me cope better.


"Tapes" ~ Alanis Morrisette

"I am someone easy to leave",
"Even easier to forget",
A voice, if inaccurate,
Again: "I'm the one they all run from",
Diatribes of clouded sun,
Someone help me find the pause button.

All these tapes in my head swirl around,
Keeping my vibe down,
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own,
Wreaking havoc.

"I'm too exhausting to be loved",
"a volatile chemical",
"best to quarantine and cut off".

All these tapes in my head swirl around,
Keeping my vibe down,
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own,
Wreaking havoc.

"I'm but thorn in your sweet side",
"You are better off without me",
"It'd be best to leave at once".

All these tapes in my head swirl around,
Keeping my vibe down,
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own,
Wreaking havoc.
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"Fear of Bliss" ~ Alanis Morrisette

My misery has enjoyed company,
And although I have ached,
I don't threaten anybody,

Sometimes I feel more bigness than I've shared with you,
Sometimes I wonder why I quell when I'm not required to,
I've tried to be small I've tried to be stunted,
I've tried roadblocks and all,
My happy endings prevented,
Sometimes I feel it's all just too big to be true,
I sabotage myself for fear of what my bigness could do.

Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude,
Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?).

I could be golden,
I could be glowing,
I could be freedom,
But that could be boring.

Sometimes I feel this is too scary to be true,
I sabotage myself for fear of losing you.

Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude,
Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?).

This talk of liberation makes me want to go lie down!,
Under the covers til the terror of the unknown is gone (gone),

I could be full,
I could be thriving,
I could be shining,
Sounds isolating,
Sometimes I feel this is too good to be true,
I sabotage myself for fear of what my joy could do.

Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude,
Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?).
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I really connect to this one as my Father is a pivotal figure as to why I have BPD ("Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could")

"So Unsexy" ~ Alanis Morrisette


Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly,
One small sideways look and I feel so ungood,
Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could.

Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me,
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked ,
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily,
I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?.

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful,
So unloved for someone so fine,
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting,
So ignorant for someone of sound mind.

Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me,
One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated,
Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me,
Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated.

When will you stop leaving baby?,
When will I stop deserting baby?,
When will I start staying with myself?.

Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me,
I jump my ship as I take it personally,
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly,
The moment I decide not to abandon me.
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Other ones are:

"Everything"~ Alanis Morrisette (For my partner as he loves me "No matter how low or high I go")
"All that I'm living for" ~ Evanescence
"Whisper" ~ Evanescence
"Addicted" ~ Kelly Clarkson
"Hear Me" ~ Kelly Clarkson (When I feel like I'm not understood with or without evidence to support the feelings)

I have plenty more but these are the main ones. I hope if listened to they can provide others with comfort like it does for me. I wish all who see this much happiness, you're all Warriors <3

Courtney Love - Nobody's Daughter
Hole - Dying
Marina and the Diamonds - Teen Idle
Depeche Mode - A Pain That I'm Used To
Melanie Martinez - Mad Hatter
Rihanna - Disturbia
Placebo - ###$ U

Also - it's not about the lyrics, but I really love these two songs when I'm in paranoid-like mood:
Nirvana - Milk It and Lounge Act.


Btw -

Smiggles wrote:Lol, I was actually thinking about starting this thread myself last night.

I have a playlist consisting of 78 songs on my phone, but a few to name:

I really LOVE your music taste!

Florence & the Machine - Heavy In Your Arms

I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced to crown
[...]
My love has concrete feet
My love's an iron ball
Wrapped around your ankles
Over the waterfall

Florence & the Machine - Falling

Sometimes I wish for falling
Wish for the release
Wish for falling through the air
To give me some relief
Because falling's not the problem
When I'm falling I'm at peace
It's only when I hit the ground
It causes all the grief