Effects if drugs and alcohol

Certain types of alcohol make me mean, violent and destructive, and some just turn me into an asshole. It's just best that I stay completely away from it. I can drink sweet red wine without any real issues, but i don't really like wine lol. I much prefer weed to anything else. I'm happy, mellow and easygoing when smoking weed. I don't do it much though because it does make me lazy and unmotivated, plus it is expensive.

If you see me with a bottle of vodka, run the other way. lol

i get bored on drugs
alcohole i like the taste but doesn't really efect my mood or bahviour (i do get drunk )

RememberRonni wrote:I drank a lot in my late teens - probably as a means to self-medicate. But I gave it up and rarely if ever drink now. The first glass is fine, after that I start to cry, get very depressed and very often end up trying to kill myself. Which is why I steer clear of it.

Same here i drank like year long when i was younger...after newyears drinking i wanna quit it...fore long time..i was/am a realy heawy alcoholic.Drinking ana all good thaughts come to head and i get hyperactive and $#%^ and then it all goes down and i have a drunken brakedown and i flip away and the hangower are unbarabl and the imperresment so i wanna try sober life as long as i can...the most i was sober for one month and two weeks!

Sometimes when I smoke pot I experience pseudo-psychotic episodes; my mind starts racing and I experience extreme anxiety like a panic attack, and my mind starts attacking me and I feel as though I'm either hallucinating or having the most intense daydream imaginable, followed by a feeling of extreme emptiness.

Long story short, I don't smoke pot anymore.

Hallucinogens saved my life. My psychedelic trips gave me so much more humility after the fact. It also was the first step for me to figure out what was wrong...Before that I abused alcohol and weed every other day just to go numb. These days its complicated. I like drinking, but I've developed some what of an "old man" tolerance. I like to have a few drinks a night to calm my nerves and allow my mind to wind down. My SO doesn't even see a difference in behavior. She can't really tell if I had any drinks. I also don't drink the cheap $#%^...So, I don't know- I probably have some form of alcohol dependence, but it never gets out of control. I'm never tempted to drink more. It's definitely an emotional regulator...so, it's something I rarely think about. I can avoid it for a few days, but then I'll decided to sit back with a nice glass. I know many pwBPD can't do this, but I like I said, I don't really enjoy being drunk. I stop after i'm relaxed, and I always feel like myself.