It is all starting to come together

I'm slowly starting to get my life back on track. For the last year I was on a major downhill slope...my BPD symptoms became unmanageable, it affected my work to the point of losing my job, I ended up in hospital, wrecked my car two times, almost got kicked out of uni due to not completing my program on time.

But things are starting to look up. I found out today that in just over a month I will have my master's degree, providing of course that I work hard over the next month to prepare for the final oral exam. My supervisor finally thinks my work is ready. It took me 2 extra years with mental and physical health issues going on, but I didn't give up like I usually do!

Job situation is slowly, but surely improving (since I am only part time) - meanwhile, I seem to have a better grip on my financial impulses, I found something that helped me be less destructive in that regard.

And my symptoms of BPD are not better but they are under control again. I am not self harming anymore, for one. I am in therapy for the rest and I do like the person I am working with, so I feel hopeful about that. I also am in a relationship with a rally great girl, and so far it has been OK, I've been able to keep some of my cray cray in check lol. And she's really supportive of me and the things I have been through, which gives me kind of a rock in that regard.

I just feel really good about all this and I wanted to share. I really hit a low when I was hospitalized again just 3 months ago, it was one of the lowest points of everything I have been through. I'm happy to say that I made it through and things actually ended up being better for me in the end, even if they aren't necessarily easy right now. I feel like I have a really good foundation to start making a better life for myself.

PROUD OF YOU!!!! Don't stop until you drop. Keep up the great work!

Out of curiosity, what has helped you with the reckless spending? I'm an impulsive spender myself.

congrats:)

Fantastic! Keep it going! It sounds like you're doing great

Its great to see success stories. congratulations Witchessabath

NimplyDinply wrote:PROUD OF YOU!!!! Don't stop until you drop. Keep up the great work!

Out of curiosity, what has helped you with the reckless spending? I'm an impulsive spender myself.

Thank you. To be honest what I'm doing with my spending is kind of silly and I don't know if it would be feasible for everyone. I just stopped taking my debit card or cash with me when I went out, unless I had something I knew I had to buy (i.e., if I knew I had to pay for parking that day I'd bring the $5, if I knew it was a long day and I wanted to buy lunch I'd bring $10, that sort of thing). I find that not having more cash on me than I need for the day prevents impulse stops at stores, restaurants, etc and by the time I get home the impulse has often passed. And I got gas cards so that I wouldn't have to carry gas money only to spend it on something else. As for online shopping I took my credit card number off websites like Amazon or Itunes, that way I have to dig it out of my closet and enter the number every time, and often I find it isn't worth the effort. Basically I exploited my own laziness. But I found that it's easier to have the discipline to make it harder to get to my money, than it is to have the discipline of having the money and trying not to spend it. It then goes from being an impulsive action to something that requires me to engage in several non-convenient steps, which defeats the purpose of acting on an impulse for immediate relief.

And thank you everyone else as well.

Warmed and inspired by your journey witches. Top man.

Wow i feel the energy in your words the excitement radiating ...its a brilliant feeling isnt it ..treasure it always

I am so happy for you and yea like JAG says "success" stories are always good to hear.

want to take the opportunity to say thanks to all the "partners" of people with BPD may one day we know how to thank them for supporting us ..even if we dont/cant show it sometimes.

Thanks for the smile WS

congrats

Journeyman15 wrote:Warmed and inspired by your journey witches. Top man.

Thanks JM.

Echinacea wrote:Wow i feel the energy in your words the excitement radiating ...its a brilliant feeling isnt it ..treasure it always

I am so happy for you and yea like JAG says "success" stories are always good to hear.

want to take the opportunity to say thanks to all the "partners" of people with BPD may one day we know how to thank them for supporting us ..even if we dont/cant show it sometimes.

Thanks for the smile WS

It really is a great feeling! After having such a rough few months, it feels amazing to be in a relatively good patch, to have things running smoothly. Thank you.

I think that's a good place to say thank you to the partners as well. I mean, generally speaking I am the "you have to be happy with yourself and strong on your own" type of person, but I can't deny that her support has been a big factor in helping me move forward. A big turning point for me was getting back on track with school, and that was because rather than do what everyone around me did - talking about IF I ever finished my program, she always talks about "when" I finish it. I always think to myself "if" I get my BPD treated properly and "if" I get my life together in a way that I like. For her, it's always "when." But she's got enough of her own past traumas, anger issues, and self-destructive tendencies that I know she isn't being unrealistically optimistic either. I guess it comes down to hope, she's helped me feel hopeful about my future again. And to think...if things didn't go down as far as they did, I wouldn't have met her.

np01 wrote:congrats

Thanks man. I feel a bit bad being so happy when you're going through such a tough patch, but I always keep my fingers crossed that things will start looking up for you soon.