post about NOT taking meds

There are so many posts on here about taking medications and what kind and how they affect you and what else you do to be better. So I thought I'd start one about not taking medicine. I was on a couple of things and they all made me just very content with things that I shouldn't be content about. It like took away all of my emotions and freewill to stand up for myself. That's the greatest feeling for me since I've been off; to tell people that they're wrong in what they did and it's not just all my fault. I stopped going to therapy too. I wasn't really getting much out of it.
I decided that if I love too hard or hate too much, that's not necessarily a bad thing, but a blessing to feel everything so much and see things so beautifully. I read a post on here a couple weeks ago basically saying that we can live normal lives with BPD but it's toxic people who trigger us and we need to get rid of them from our lives. That's what I've been doing the past couple of weeks and while I'm still lonely, seek the comfort of booze, and have outbursts, I feel better than I did when I was any kind of nedication. So is there anyone else who doesn't take meds to help?

dd2300 wrote:There are so many posts on here about taking medications and what kind and how they affect you and what else you do to be better. So I thought I'd start one about not taking medicine. I was on a couple of things and they all made me just very content with things that I shouldn't be content about. It like took away all of my emotions and freewill to stand up for myself. That's the greatest feeling for me since I've been off; to tell people that they're wrong in what they did and it's not just all my fault. I stopped going to therapy too. I wasn't really getting much out of it.
I decided that if I love too hard or hate too much, that's not necessarily a bad thing, but a blessing to feel everything so much and see things so beautifully. I read a post on here a couple weeks ago basically saying that we can live normal lives with BPD but it's toxic people who trigger us and we need to get rid of them from our lives. That's what I've been doing the past couple of weeks and while I'm still lonely, seek the comfort of booze, and have outbursts, I feel better than I did when I was any kind of nedication. So is there anyone else who doesn't take meds to help?

Hi dd

I don't take any medication for the most part for the same reasons you identify (plus, as I seem helpless to not divulge, they interfere with my sexy time).

Therapy, however, I couldn't function without. Plus (yes I know I'm a broken record) if you're drinking as a means of escape then you're self-medicating.

Just my thoughts, for whatever they're worth.

Medication takes my emotions away as well and it feels off. I used to take antidepressants but they just made me super empty and then I would have identity crises because I'm nothing without my mood swings.

Right now I don't actually go to proper therapy, but I do have weekly appointments with a psychologist. Therapy doesn't do much for me either... Sometimes it does more harm than good because I will get really frustrated and angry, and I would yell at the therapist and I'd have to suppress violent urges.

I think the DBT 'Wise Mind' theory is pretty good though, and I've been practising its strategies to cope with BPD long before I even knew the theory was a thing. Balancing everything emotionally and logically helps reduce stress and the intensity of my reactions. However, my main coping strategy is isolation (not good, but whatever). If I remove myself from everything, then I won't have to be hurt, and other people won't have to be hurt by me.

If meds don't work, what I need are healthy coping strategies that do. I don't actively seek them out though because it's too much effort

Journeyman15 wrote:if you're drinking as a means of escape then you're self-medicating.

Correct. Different effects though.

The only medication that ever did anything positive for me were the anti-anxiety ones, namely Ativan and Klonopin. Given their addictiveness, none of my doctors will give me anymore and I don't blame them. Everything else did nothing, and I've been on all sorts of anti-depressants. All they ever did was make me sweat.

I'm happy that I am not on meds, and I really think that for me it's the right choice. My problems, I'm convinced, are largely the way I view the world around me, and also how I cope with those perceptions. I don't believe that's the case for everyone, I think some people truly do need medication because of a chemical imbalance, but I don't seem to be one of those people.

I'd probably be in prison if I didn't take my regimen. I'd ######6 hate that.

I should be taking Duloxetine but i'm not because i fear it will put on weight even though ive been told it wont. Nothing works anyway.

I don't take them for some of the side effects. Moreover, what you said about being triggered my toxic people is true. As long as I'm not in a problematic environment I am more or less ok, but at the moment there is someone who takes pleasure in making me feel like $#%^ and no matter how hard I try to stay away from that person we end up talking and I end up having to get completely drunk to be able to deal with the situation.

I'm almost sure that if I didn't have as many problems as I do I would be able to live a normal life and deal with BPD easily.