Have you ever

Have you ever said or did something that was pretty insignificant, but in your head you blow it up to be some huge ordeal? I mean something that really means nothing. Nothing at all except to you. Then you get really upset with yourself, and wonder why the hell you said or did what you did. Im so pissed at myself, and have been all day, over something really stupid, and i know for a fact that its just me. That no one else has even thought twice about it. I am having a really hard time dealing with it right now. I dont know what to do to get it out of my head. Can anyone relate? How do you stop beating yourself up over stupid things.

I have some anger issues so I will say something trivial that means nothing to the person I'm talking to, I'll obsess and stew about it and imagine what they are thinking about it and then I'll attack them the next time I see them. It's one of the many things that I'm learning to try and control

That happens to me all the time, my way of dealing is to continuously tell myself to shut up no one even cares but me, sometimes I even say it loudly not just in my head. I just straight up have a convo with myself which may be another issue all in itself but it seems to help. Sometimes I just say shut up, shut up, shut up and it goes away. I always close my eyes really tight and shake my head that may or may not have an effect but just telling ya what has worked for me in those situations. It's like I'm mentally shaking it off and letting it go.

I have been feeling overwhelmed past few days. When i feel this way i tend to act in ways that i normally wouldn't, and i hate it. At the same time i cant stop it. Autumn, i have conversations with myself all the time. Especially today. So you are not alone in that. It just doesnt seem to be chilling me out right now. I have anger issues to bat, usually it is because of something someone said, or didnt say or maybe even how they said it. Right now my issue is over something stupid that no one but me did, seems to be the hardest for me to get past. Least if someone else pisses me off, i can get away from them. I cant get away from me.

Yeah. I avoid conflict like the plague because I do not handle it very well at all. I will feel backed into a corner and let myself get treated badly or / until I snap and go way over the top lashing out defensively. But then ironically because I am so nervous of conflict and constantly looking out for warning signs I will sometimes see it when it is not even there and so I wind up creating the conflict in my own head and react emotionally as though it really is happening or really did happen. I was at a social gathering recently and I accidentally spilled a bit of food on the floor. I quickly cleaned it up and there was no stain but I was sure that the owner of the place must secretly be mad at me for it and also I figured everyone must think I am a stupid slob and I felt like pins and needles for the most of the evening. Luckily for me nobody said anything that my brain could have even possibly construed as implying anything so it eventually died down and I was distracted from it. I feel like I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop and for someone to want to fight me or attack me in some way and sometimes the stress of it makes me feel like it might as well be actually happening whether it really is or not. So any small stupid thing can send me into a paranoid fit inside my head.

In typical all or nothing fashion, I've been avoiding people all together for a while. And when I do hang out with people I just keep my mouth shut for the most part, and I don't pay attention to what they're saying. I simply eat my food or drink my drink. I'm just exhausted by having to be nice or polite or interested when I'm not. And I'm exhausted by monitoring how I feel or how I react…or whether or not my own wishes are appropriate or not. I know it's not really a solution either, just where I'm at right now.

Thanks for the commits guys and gals. It is helpful to know that im not the only one. Still not really sure how to handle it, but im workin on it. I've got 7's practice tonight, so gettin out there and sweating my a## off and hitting a few people will help for sure. A little aggression can go a long way in releasing some stress.

I was at a social gathering recently and I accidentally spilled a bit of food on the floor. I quickly cleaned it up and there was no stain but I was sure that the owner of the place must secretly be mad at me for it and also I figured everyone must think I am a stupid slob and I felt like pins and needles for the most of the evening. Luckily for me nobody said anything that my brain could have even possibly construed as implying anything so it eventually died down and I was distracted from it. I feel like I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop and for someone to want to fight me or attack me in some way and sometimes the stress of it makes me feel like it might as well be actually happening whether it really is or not. So any small stupid thing can send me into a paranoid fit inside my head.

center of the universe syndrome
in reality, nobody cares
get over yourself and your problem will solve itself

U4ia wrote:

I was at a social gathering recently and I accidentally spilled a bit of food on the floor. I quickly cleaned it up and there was no stain but I was sure that the owner of the place must secretly be mad at me for it and also I figured everyone must think I am a stupid slob and I felt like pins and needles for the most of the evening. Luckily for me nobody said anything that my brain could have even possibly construed as implying anything so it eventually died down and I was distracted from it. I feel like I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop and for someone to want to fight me or attack me in some way and sometimes the stress of it makes me feel like it might as well be actually happening whether it really is or not. So any small stupid thing can send me into a paranoid fit inside my head.

center of the universe syndrome
in reality, nobody cares
get over yourself and your problem will solve itself

Of course, except my brain doesn't get over itself, even I give it some logical, rational reasoning as to why it should.