New guy***Appreciate the talk!

Hello everyone,

This is my first time here and i must say this is not easy. I have watched unbeknownst to many some of the threads on this forum and have come to take comfort even if not joy in knowing i am not alone, and that despite everything we experienced some of us have managed some semblance of stability and peace, even if a fleeting one.

I have been in a cycle of continuous seclusion from the world having little to no contact with anyone outside close relatives for what are months now. I haven't left my house in weeks... the prospect of interacting with the outside world terrifies me to the core of who i am. Even as i write this i feel anxious and nervous at the prospect of new contact, but i suppose i have reached a state where my fear of being alone is greater then my fear of talking to other people. My day's pass by me in a hazing stupor... i sleep for the most part of the day and when i wake up the only thing i feel is pain and sadness... To be awake is to be in pain.Life is literally killing me.

I'm 24 year's old and unemployed living in a country i hate with people i despise and no prospects of anything resembling a future i could embrace and love... That along with no friends, chronic pain and sadness have made me contemplate ending this story for good.

What's the bloody point to this if the most i can aspire to in my life is to end up behind a desk taking calls.

Anyways tanks for reading this. I really appreciate it.

If anyone wants to talk i would enjoy that.

Hi. Welcome to the forum. Feel free to pm me.

Same here, it's a comforting feeling that everyone needs once in a while.

Have you gone through therapy? Maybe it would help.

Yeah, life does seem empty when it feels like all we exist to do is work mundane jobs & waste our lives away.

Feel free to PM me if you'd like!

Sorry I didn't catch this thread before - my apologies!! Awfully late to the party, but hello anyway.

It sounds like things are overwhelming you. My suggestion is to pick one and work on it - work your butt off. I'd recommend the job first. I wouldn't even worry about a job you love; just get one that pays. Every boy's dream of being a bikini inspector is great until you consider that bikini inspectors work in a factory in Thailand and make a dollar a day...and never see the bikinis on models. So for now, just get a job. It'll help boost your self-esteem, it'll give you some money to get out and socialize with, and equally important, it'll give your resume a boost, so if you find a job you DO like, you look even better to a potential employer.

And no, you don't have to spend your life being a desk jockey. There are a lot of background support roles that have you up and moving, but don't have you dealing with the public, or at worst, only minimal contact. Believe me, if I had to deal with the public every day in my job, I'd be unemployed, too. I just couldn't handle that anxiety and stress.

bbygrl_3 wrote:Same here, it's a comforting feeling that everyone needs once in a while.

Have you gone through therapy? Maybe it would help.

Yeah, life does seem empty when it feels like all we exist to do is work mundane jobs & waste our lives away.

Feel free to PM me if you'd like!

Hi,

Thanks for answering my post and sorry it took so long to respond, i hadn't come here in a while.

To answer what you said, i couldn't agree more.Life for it's own sake is jut another form of madness, and the daily grinding of menial labor makes us all slaves to it.

I just wish i could give my life meaning in a way that would make a difference and make me happy at the same time. Maybe i'm asking too much, but if you don't ask that much i don't think there's even in asking for anything else.

Anyways thanks for answering my post and i hope we can chat sometime.

Take care

Sorry I missed your original post back in March. Just wanted to let you know I will talk. I feel the same as you.

I have been in a cycle of continuous seclusion from the world having little to no contact with anyone outside close relatives for what are months now. I haven't left my house in weeks... the prospect of interacting with the outside world terrifies me to the core of who i am.

You don't have to talk to people if you walk out of the house. i often go to the park. although it's lonely, very lonely it calms me at times.

Even as i write this i feel anxious and nervous at the prospect of new contact,

it's okay to be nervous. it means you feel some emotion. indifference would be worse than anxiety.

My day's pass by me in a hazing stupor... i sleep for the most part of the day and when i wake up the only thing i feel is pain and sadness... To be awake is to be in pain.Life is literally killing me.

i'm sorry you're going through this. i understand what it means. often on weekends i just lie on bed and wait for the day to end.

What's the bloody point to this if the most i can aspire to in my life is to end up behind a desk taking calls.

it's all right to have that sort of job.

life sure can be very difficult at times.

things that help me with my ailment:
eat more fruits and vegetables and less spicy food, no aerated drinks
some work out/exercise
accepting the emotion and not feeling guilty for it.
posting on this forum. releasing my issues and talking about them over here
listening to songs(be they sad, philosophical or cheerful, depends on my emotion)

take care...hope things get better for all of us