Medication : what are you on and what does it do.

At the moment i'm on sertraline to keep my mood up.
In the past i've been on metazapine which made me sleep the whole time and citalopram which did nothing.
Also been on lorazepam and diazepam for anxiety and general calming down because i was so super sensitive to rejection, still am now but therapy helped more with that.

I'm not on anything: when first diagnosed they tried me on Lamictal but it was clearly having no impact on me. Prior to being diagnosed, I was given a bunch of different anti-depressants, which also had no impact on me, apart from Fluoxetine which didn't change my moods but did help some problems OCD-wise.
I think with BPD it's worth being open with trying new meds (if you are ok with them). Everyone is different

I'm on Sertraline (Zoloft) and Alprazolam (Xanax) for symptoms of depression and anxiety.

When I first started the Sertraline, the frequency and intensity of my panic attacks worsened dramatically and I had extreme insomnia for the first two weeks or so. After that it slowly improved. I can't remember whether my suicidal ideation worsened, but I do know that it really made me feel horrible; I felt chronically tired and spent all of my time in bed, even though I could not sleep, because I didn't have the energy to do anything. Side effects from psychotropic drugs (especially antidepressants) seem to cause different side effects depending on age though; I'm only 17 and these meds are normally not supposed to be taken by anyone under 18, so that may explain some side effects. At the moment I'm not really sure whether it's working, although my anxiety and panic attacks have gotten a lot better, I don't really feel like it's because of the medication and I do have the urge to stop taking it.

As for the Xanax, it's definitely amazing for both panic attacks and insomnia. However, I am definitely noticing that I am building up tolerance, which is slightly worrying to me (for reference: I think I've taken it for half a year now). I also notice that Ive become mentally dependent on it, by which I mean that if I realise I don't have it with me, that makes me incredibly anxious and can cause a panic attack.