Three personalities...

I figured them all out. After almost costing me my own life. I am writing today because one of them wants to keep coming out to control me. I am basically in my own body in this , "dissociated feeling" and the other personality who is a total meanie hates that. So, they have come to the conclusion of being a total rudebutt to everyone five times so far. Yes, I can interact with her indirectly, but only to tell her to stay away... I can't tell the other one to stay away though... none of us can. She can't basically hear us. She is the depressed one, the one that keeps me up at night crying, she is the one that nearly cost me my life. I still have yet to figure out why and yet to figure out what happened.

I am so numb... can anyone relate? I feel so cold... I wish I would let the rude one out, she is so warm... but I know she will start a fight. But, I am so cold.

I know I have the ability to form and act as different personas, but I never experience a dissociation from myself whenever said personas are active. What you're explaining sounds more like DID, at least to me. But what do I know, I'm not a doctor.

Hi there

I have a part that comes out sometimes- a little. I'm very uncomfortable with it still and tend to block it. I get a feeling of watching what I'm doing and feeling the presence of a small child, and my head feeling really fuzzy. I am not really able to interact with her as yet.

I think it's really good that you've been able to write about it- I know that's not always easy to do. Is there a time and place where it would be safe to let the rude one out? Perhaps around only trusted people? Are you safe?

I've found others who can relate really well in the DID forum- it might be worth checking out.