need to talk to someone all the time?

Lately I've been feeling really lonely and like I need to talk to someone all day. I feel that if people will text me back all day or want to hang out with me then I'll be happier. I'm a very private person and the only person who knows of my disorder are my boyfriend and my mom. I try to not talk about it with my boyfriend so that he doesn't have to deal with it and to make him think I'm okay. But this past week or two I've just felt so lonely and isolated. I used to seek out guys for sex or to take me out drinking when I felt like this but since my boyfriend has been so great to me lately, I don't want to go down that route anymore. I've tried turning to them to be friends and talk to but when I tell them I only want to be friends, they're gone emotionally. The ladies I work with are all 30 years older than me and I'm not particularly close with any of them. I just feel so alone and lost and want someone who just happens to know if I'm feeling down or who I can call up to go for a drive or anything to clear my head. I'm just so tired of pretending I'm okay and feeling like I'm dying on the inside or my head is exploding. I need a way to release these thoughts...

yes...yes...lol

for me, it's like I have to have something open where even if I am not talking to someone I know they are there.

it's weird, when I have no indication people are present (online or offline) it's like they don't exist and I feel like the only person in the world left.

so instead of people just being away, when they go away it's like they cease to exist in my world, that's what it feels like....I am not delusional I know they still exist but that's what it FEELS like....I feel as if they are gone gone and I feel utterly alone and even become like sick to my stomach and terrified

I relate to both of you. Sometimes I get really lonely and if there is nobody online or texting me etc., I get really anxious and upset and feel abandoned, I guess. Almost like everyone else is at a party together and I was the only one not invited.

I used to do what OP did, go out drinking or, etc., but lately I'm trying to just ride out the mood until it passes.

I also like to talk to someone for the majority of the day. I also like to feel people's physical presence. Like even if I'm just sitting in the same room as a family member watching TV, its very comforting to me.

On the opposite hand, I tend to get annoyed with talking to people who I'm either not close with or try to have shallow conversations that go nowhere. I also don't mind being alone when I'm doing certain activities, like studying.

justagirl00 wrote:I get really anxious and upset and feel abandoned, I guess. Almost like everyone else is at a party together and I was the only one not invited.

That really got me. Like everyone is at a party together and I wasn't invited. I feel that way all the time. Like all my "friends" have other friends and go out and hang out with them all the time and can't invite me with them to meet their friends. Why not?? Then I feel like they're embarrassed of me or our friendship isn't real. Whenever I go have a social outing I invite everyone I know. Literally. I went to a party on Halloween and it was my first social outing with friends my age (my boyfriend is 1 years older than me and we mostly hang out with his older friends) in over a year and I hopped on facebook and invited everyone I was friends with and called everyone in my contacts list! And only one showed up who then told me he wanted to be more than friends with me. Shocker...
i used to not mind that, I was all for it but I'm trying really really hard now to be 100% faithful to my boyfriend and create meaningful and lasting friendships but it's just so hard.

I apologize for the input I put in many threads at the moment, but I am on getting clean from my addictions for my current girlfriend so I have to do activities. This forum is really helpful so I have to be careful not to go and replace my current two addictions with any new one. Nevertheless I think the problem about the "I need to talk to someone" can be blamed on social media overuse or text msg programs in the new era of technology. I disabled all stuff that connected me to social media or whatsapp as much as possible which was my girlfriends idea in the first place. She said for a healthy monogamous relationship lifestyle its impossible if we use stuff like that. When things are quiet and I feel nervous cause I want to go after my addictions I found it more productive to play a game simply or read books and study for my career and current job. Those things keep me busy from the need of "constantly being available and need someone to talk to". This forum is great but use it wise as it can lead to that "talk and text addiction" you are trying to fight. Life is not only a dramatic even. Shakespeare is neither a scientist nor a psychologist thatswhy you should try to distance yourself from the constant drama and try finding your passion in working on your own abilities as a human. Learn a new language on your own by learning vocabulary or try learning math on higher level or how to design a computer game so many things you can do with your time that is more productive than addictions of drama or talk. Don't waste your time, enter google.com find activites and pursue them while you are doing that normal people will find you as well e.g. in cooking class .
Life is sooo beautiful and the funny part is, you can see all its beauty in the moment there is no one to annoy you from going after your dreams . Live a life worth remembering and your soul will gain access to immortality.