what am i?

im actually driving myself round the bend. So i have recently been told i have dissociative identity disorder but for a long time before people have often thought i was a borderline. I have researched for years reading everything about bdp and yes i display all of the right signs significantly. But you cant be did and bdp at the same time right? I was never abused as a child so how i can be did is a confusing time. I am so confused driving my partner crazy he cant handle my i hate you please dont leave me thing. He thinks i need to be hospitalized but the psychiatrist doesnt think so although he only knows a fraction of things about me. What do i do? Im getting awfully depressed and im seriously wanting to bang my head against the brick wall over and over and over................ please someone help

Hi, you would know if you were DID. You would have alters doing things, that you might remember, you might not. They might know eachother , they might not, They may have names, they might not "yet"/

Bpd is loss of self. Both are caused from abuse, but the affects are different, and usually bpd is more about abandonment, rejection, neglect. DID is usually from extreme physical and emotional trauma.

I hope we can talk more................

hi yeh thats exactly what i mean. I do have alters doing things i dont remember but i i also have all the abandonment and all the stuff to do with bdp im so confused!

You could have a dissociation issue.

this can happen with bpd.

have you ever been dx'd with ptsd?

um i dont understand that last post. Sorry im not an air head really!

Have you ever been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Freakier?

i want to bang my head into the wall also! i feel like everyone in my life would be happy if I did that (though that is irrational thinking, i still feel it). I don't know why i would want to hurt myself to please others. do you feel that way too?

no i havent ever been diagnosed with that
why do you ask?

That's what DD was asking you.

Perhaps DD is referring to a traumatizing event which you may not remember?

i dont know i mean surely i would remember and how would i find out if i did have something happen? i mean no one has ever let anything on that i did you know?