A little nervous

I've started up a new relationship with someone, he is very sweet, generous, gentle, respectful, kind and aware of my condition. I'm just nervous i'm going to mess it up. This guy is brilliant and i'm not sure he knows everything about my condition hence the nervousness. I still feel empty, i want
him but i can't tell if i like him or i'm entering depression again since i've had a few changes in the last few months.

Thoughts?

My first thought was "yep, that's typical Borderline!" "Am I in love or am I depressed?" Only we wouldn't know the difference. No, it's not a shot at you; I second guess myself, too. I just thought it kinda funny.

I'll wager money that he doesn't know everything about your condition. Heck, most of us haven't figured out everything about our conditions, and we're the ones living them! So don't expect anyone to fully know or understand what you're going through; it just won't happen. All they can do is get the gist of it and learn how to cope with it, just like you have. In time, he'll learn more. Just be patient and give him a chance.

Congrats! I hope everything goes well for you two!!

I think I know how this feels. Try taking it one day at a time. If you've had DBT work on your DBT techniques. Its normal to feel bad even when in love, sometimes. Being in love doesn't automatically solve all problems or magically makes you feel happy all the time. Life always has ups and downs, even when in love. You might always have certain days you feel bad. He is not a perfect person either and you will see some of his flaws eventually, and he might have bad moods and weak areas and insecurities too, that maybe you haven't seen yet. Just remember everybody has some flaws, and everybody has good traits. Congratulations on your new relationship and best of luck.